I cant hold on

Tears, pain, worry

I called an ambulance right away. I couldnt even get my words out properly. A lump. I knew it straight away. I didnt want to believe it though. I didnt want to think of what could happen. Tears streamed down my face as rivers. I couldnt hold them back. I told everything to the operater on the other side of the phone, although it took a while. An ambulance came within 10 minutes. I tried explaining to my TT what was happening but i dont think she understood. I was so scared, i felt pain. I felt physical pain in every part of my body. I didnt want to loose her. I kept on telling myself it would be ok but every part of me knew something was wrong. When the ambulance came, I watched them check her over, i watched them find the lump, i watched them do tests, i watched them whisper to each other in worry. They quickly loaded her onto a stretcher while one of them came over to me and explained. She had an irregular heart beat and her lungs were close to collapse. I couldnt believe it. No wonder she was coughing all the time. Then she mentioned if they dont get her to the hospital in time she her lungs will collapse and her heart will give up. We needed to go quickly. my legs were shaking and it was hard to move, but one of the ladies helped me up and downstairs to the ambulance. I held Tonis hand all the drive but she didnt know what was happening. When we got to the hospital she was wheeled away and I was told to sit in the waiting room. Everyone stared at me as I cried and cried waiting for news about Toni. I had to call Betty, tell her what was happening. I dialed her number but she didnt pick up. Juliet, her and Jugheads daughter did.
"Hey Juliet its Cheryl." I tried to say but my voice was shaking.
"Auntie Cheryl!!" She calls me auntie even though im her second cousin.
"Is mummy there?"
"No mums gone to meet with friends."
"Is Daddy there?" Jughead and Toni were quite close in high school, he might know what to do.
"Yeah i'll get him for you." I heard her shout for him.
"Eh hey Cheryl, Betty isnt here..." he started but I cut him off.
"I dont care." I was practically shouting.
"Hey whats up, you sound scared?"
"I am scared. Im in the hospital. Tonis lungs are close to collapse." I spurted out. He answered as quick as I did.
"Toni? Is she alright?" I had to put the phone down. The doctor came over.
"I'll be 1 sec jughead, the doctors here. The doctors face looked solemn. I knew he wasnt about to give some happy news.
"Cheryl Blossom? Youre here with Toni Topaz?" I nodded tears in my eyes.
"Is she ok?" The doctors face was sad and ghostly. He took a sigh.
"Im afraid we have noticed her condition to late. She has 14 days to live."