Two weeks later:
I can't believe this is it, I'm leaving Seattle and the worst part is that i don't know when I'm coming back. I'm leaving my school with my memories of me being a failure. I'm leaving all the beatings I constantly had in school, but most importantly I'm leaving all those things because I shared them with Ben. I open my eyes to my brother grabbing all the suitcases downstairs so by the time we leave it won't take long. It's so different to me, the house, looking all empty except for my grandmothers room. I get up to feeling a stranger in these hallways of this empty looking house. I can't help but to go into all the rooms and picture how everything was before we put them in a box. Once I go through all the rooms I go downstairs and find again my family already , as always , eating without me. I take a seat and the room is filled up with silence as if you could hear the silence. I sit next to my grandmother and she immediately holds my hand as I'm looking at her she smiles and says " I am going to miss you so,so much. Tears start running through her cheeks when I tell her " I don't want you to be sad I am just going to miss your cooking in the morning and waking up to the smell of breakfast. I dry her tears with both my thumbs and she smiles with her teeth hidden. After breakfast I take a shower, brush my teeth, put some clothes on comfortable and casual enough for the plane ride and tell my mom " Pick me up at Ben's when we have to leave. Before she could complain she looked at me and possibly realized it would be the last time I would see Ben in who knows how long so she just nodded and told me i'll honk when I'm outside his house and walked out by saying okay.
Knocking at his house seemed to overrated for me so for traditional purposes I just let myself in. Right after I opened the door I find myself in front of Ben with arms wide open as if he were about to jump off a plane and begin to fly. It was so weird that Ben wasn't at his room. I walk up to him and allow him to give me a bear hug but I was already aware that he wasn't asking for permission to hug me. He squeezes me so tight I could feel the mornings food coming up my throat so I slapped him in the head. "ow!, what was that for?" I responded while smiling "listen asshole this is the last time im gonna see you and you already have me ready to throw up on you" He laughed " I'm sorry man but I don't want you to leave, you already know that I don't know how I will survive high school without you" I felt so bad cause I know that we have been through so much that it felt as if I were leaving a part of myself here in Seattle. We go on to the rooftop as the sun comes low I know that I only have 20 minutes at the most so I begin to tell him " Ben I know it's gonna blow us not experiencing high school together but you can't be sad about us not being in the same school. You have to make high school your bitch and don't allow anyone get to you with their ignorant judgments you have to be you. High school is the time for you to make any choices you want. Go tell Emily your feelings and if you ever second guess yourself just think about me and do it for your bro" He hugged me and began to speak with his voice cracking as if all the emotions he held inside were on his throat " Don't forget to keep in touch" I laugh and respond " You know that even if I don't I won't have any friend like you" I hear a honk and I realize it's my mom waiting for me outside with my brother and sister. As we're walking downstairs towards the door I see Carol , give her a hug and say " take care of my boy here keep him out of trouble until he is with me" she smiles and says "You will be missed in this home because it's now a part of you as well I will be forever grateful for my son having a friend like you in his life" As me and Ben walk out we stop at the entrance of his house and says " Until we meet again brother" he lifts his hand waiting for the one last handshake we will have done before I leave I smile and put my hand down and he hits it once, then I lift mine and he puts his down and hits it again ending with us slapping each other in the face. This time he slapped me a little harder that it leaves a mark I look at him and call him a bitch , he laughs and says " You needed something to remind you of me so I thought you could look yourself in the mirror every morning and remember who did that too you. As i'm walking away it all begins to feel so real but yet again I feel like at any minute I can wake up and tell this story to Ben I am so sad to leave all this behind, when I actually thought I could call this my home. I have mixed emotions about everything that's going on but of course I always have to put a good face to the world just so people could be happy with themselves I have this. As i'm waving goodbye he tells me "don't forget who your real family is man." I smile as the car starts to leave I put half my body out the window and tell him as i'm pointing to him "you know I never will" and then get back in the car. looking through the rear window I begin to see the image of Ben disappearing followed by his house, his street, his block and eventually this town.
