Waking up the next morning was a little more relieving knowing that its a new day, anything new could occur. I walk down eat my breakfast and tell my mom that I'm attending to a party at eight O' clock, my mom is a little concern because she thinks I'm not handling the situation of moving to another city very lightly and I don't blame her because that's exactly how i feel but I don't want to worry her anymore so I decide to act happy by saying "I thought of it more this morning and I think this move can be good for all of us, I'm actually pretty happy for you mom, its been four years of you being single without the support of our father you deserve someone who will appreciate you, other than your kids,and will for once take care of you" my mom changed her expression from worried to overwhelming excitement and made me realize that i've never seen my mom this happy ever, even when she was with my dad, she had this certain glow that no one could take away from her. She began by saying "Have you talked to Michael and Ana?" I realize I haven't really talked to Michael he usually doesn't say anything even if it involves us moving from another city to the eastern part of the U.S. I told my mom i would go talk to him then leave to Ben's so we could head out to the party together, she was okay with the idea but mentioned that I shouldn't drink and I agreed as if what she said didn't matter.
I go up the stairs and into the room that i share with my brother and sit on his bed but he doesn't even notice me cause he is stuck in between reading and listening to music. He was never a very social person everything he felt he kept to himself and it seemed so simple the way the thought and repressed feelings I always thought him as a robot and the moment he were to seek emotion he would just self destruct and vanish into thin air. I put my hand over the book and instantly gave me the death look as if looks could kill. I asked "can you please listen to me?" he responded in a very impolite way " I'm busy, maybe some other time I would gladly listen to you all you want" "why are you always like this man, all your doing is reading a book I just want to know how you feel about us moving to Chicago with a man we don't know" he just shrugged his shoulders as if what he thought didn't matter and said "I don't care" I just stood up and left because I knew if I stayed it would end up in fists and I wouldn't go out with Ben so I told him " Mom is worried about you and frankly so am I. You never say what you feel and we don't want you to just keep it to yourself" my brother just puts on his headphones and says "Maybe you should worry about yourself instead" I understood my brother had always been like that so I just hit the shower and headed out to Ben's all dressed for the party.
On my way to Ben's house I was thinking of ways to tell him that I would move by the end of this summer and how all our plans have basically been ruined, but I thought to tell him at the party so he and I could just forget it with all the liquor that would be involved. As usual I don't even knock and enter right through as if it were my own house. I ask his mom where he was and she said he was in the bathroom but that I could wait in his room. I always viewed his mom as my second mom she had heard most of what my mom had been through and she was always very understanding "Thanks Carol" I responded to Ben's mom as I was walking up the stairs to his room. While I was waiting for Ben to come out of his hour long shower, I was looking at some of the pictures he and I were in. It felt so nostalgic, Ben and I had only been friends of over a year but it felt as if we were brothers since birth. I suddenly heard shouts and screams coming from the shower "Don't stop, Believing!" followed by some murmurs in which resulted him not knowing the rest of the song. I bashed on his door three times so he would hurry up but before I could even knock again he opened the door to a fist on his face, luckily he was able to dodge it before I hit his nose. He laughed and said "Did you see my cat-like reflexes?" "Oh, how could I miss such a thing" I said sarcastically, we both laughed and while he was putting on his cheap Cologne I mentioned him "so do you think I can sleep over?" He laughed and said " Do you even need to ask?" he said as if my question were irrelevant. A few minutes later we headed out to the party.
We pulled up to the house of some white rich suburban girl that Ben had been obsessing since they were in kindergarten his mom had always mentioned her to make him feel like a child. "Okay kids don't smoke anything that smells like skunk " To which Ben responded "Mom we don't know what a skunk smells like" and winked at her. She rolled her eyes and said "Just be careful I don't want to pick you guys up at the police station for underage drinking or anything in that range" before Ben could say anything else I said 'Don't worry Carol I will take care of him" she smiled. As we were walking in she yelled "Good luck with Emily!" he was hiding his face with the palm of his hand and everyone just started laughing at him. I told him "Only we can make the best entrances" He smiled and walked inside towards the house. Ben and I were never the popular kind of people when it comes to being with other guys all of the guys at our high school are assholes mainly cause I hooked up with a lacrosse player's ex girlfriend and we occasionally got beaten down a couple times Ben too because he tried to stop the whole lacrosse team to go against me but it turned into the whole lacrosse team going against me and Ben which sucked but at least it was a best friend experience, or so I thought. We almost inmedeatly headed to the table full of beers and liquor I wanted him to have a good time and be a little under the influence so it wouldn't matter to him as much that I'm leaving to Chicago in a two weeks. After a few drinks we sit at this leather couch, we are both laughing with a girl each, he obviously is taking one for the team since he likes no one else but Emily. I decide to tell the girls "Can you give us a minute" they leave without complaining and Ben starts of by saying "Is somthing wrong man?" "Actually I do" my words were a little slurred "Im moving to Chicago in two weeks" I replied. He just stands compleatly still without a word on his mouth. He just stands up and gets out of the house I don't what else to do but follow him we are both intoxicated so that makes it a little harder to know which way he is going once I see he is in the middle of the street I try to call him by yelling his name. He looks back and asks "what do you want?" "I just wanna talk Ben I know your upset but it's not my fault this is not what I want at all" "but what do you expect me to do when the only friend I have is leaving, what will I do?" he said stumbling a little to the side but then regained his balance again. but I had never seen him so upset and it made me think how much I meant to him. I pulled him off the street and hugged him telling him "You are a part of my family and nothing will change that no matter how far I am from seattle. you can always come and visit me" "Ill miss you soo much" he replied. Then we started walking back to the party until it was time to go back to his house. he will always be known as my best friend.
