𝓃𝒸𝓉 𝒾𝓂𝒶𝑔𝒾𝓃𝑒𝓈 〚request open〛

jeno, smutty angst『sober』

I said I'm not ready for smut but,
this isn't a hardcore smut lol.
I tried to write it softly, in a sweet way.

Jeno, do you still want me when you're sober ?

❥ Every saturday night, Jeno organizes parties at his house. And (y/n) lies if she says that she doesn't feel honored to be a part of the guests.

(y/n)'s POV;

Sunday, 01:27am. [jeno's house]

At this time of the night, everyone is drunk and unconscious, except me. I don't like alcohol, it smells bad.
While everyone drinks alcohol stuffs that I don't know the brands-Hennessy or whatever-, you will always find me in the kitchen. I enjoy the music, but all those drunk people give me headache. Why do I always say yes to come here ?

« slower Jeno, » I whisper while he is marking me of blue. « it hurts. »

His gentle touch on my body is the reason why. I feel like belonging to someone once in my life when I'm under his presence. He is a safe place. His eyes are full of lust, but will he want me when he's sober?

His hands keep on traveling and visiting my body, from my lips to my lips. At this moment, the only word I know is his name.

┉ ┉ ┉

Monday, 11am. [school]

He is consistently ignoring me, and you know what? It hurts. He's so close yet so far. Will I ever find safety without him?
Every monday is the day I realize that he may tell me it's love these nights, I know it's just only lust.

I don't know if you consider this as me sexualizing him but if so,
then it's your opinion.
I just tried to write a making out scene in a beautiful way,
even if it doesn't seem like it..