I'll Be Your Healer (Editing)

Chapter 3 - How I feel

Dean POV

Am I really gonna talk to Charlie about my dark past? I just sighed hearing the knock at the door. I got up to open it. Charlie stood there but I just couldn't help but stare at her feeling stiff. "Am I aloud to come in? Or... am I gonna stand out here like a melon?" she chuckled. I stepped to the side allowing her in

She sat down cross legged on the bed making herself comfortable. I sat opposite. It was silent for a few minutes. "So... who's going first?" She asked.

"I guess I will.." I took a deep breath. "I was brought up in a shitty area. My Dad left me with my alcoholic Mum, she would come home with a different man to bang. I was bullied at school. So I found a wrestling school. I started enjoying it and it became my passion. Then I met this guy we came really close friends. We both got signed to CZW. He was like a brother. But one night I found him on the bathroom floor with pills around him and a note. I lost someone. I don't like getting attached to people, because I know I will lose them. There's this side of me I can't control, it's pure evil and not me. I don't like it and I don't like hurting people... physically and emotionally."

After keeping that in me I felt a whole lot better letting it out. Charlie hugged me. "I'm sorry" she said. "It's life Charlie. I'm ok. What about you then?"

Charlie POV

He trusts me I guess I can trust him.

"Well my Mum was an alcoholic too. She would beat me, tell me I'm an ugly whore that no man would want me. She brought men back to sleep with. My step dad would hit me too...'"

Dean had anger but saddness plastered on his face. He came over and hugged me. "It's ok you're safe now" he said rubbing my back.

"And when I was 16 I got drunk one night and this guy got all touchy on me following me home but someone saved me and beat the shit out of him." I smiled "I never got to thank him. We may of.. But he was my first" I bit my lip.

Dean frozed. "Sorry I shouldn't told you that" I blushed. "No.. umm I... umm" Dean was stuttering. "You can tell me" I smiled rubbing his arm. "That was umm me.." I dropped my hand down beside me. He was the one that took my virginity...

"So.. I took your virginity?" he smirked. I rolled my eyes. He's gonna have this against me now. "Don't get mad at me you wanted it just as much as I wanted it." "I think we're done." I stood up about to walk out when Dean grabbed me by my wrist. "Don't leave" he begged.

"Why?" "I don't wanna be alone" "You've always been alone Dean. " "Fine whatever" he spat laying down on the bed. I sighed sitting next to him. "Go away" he mumbled. "Nope" I mimicked. He gave me the evils

"I'm not that easy to get rid off" I smirked. He mumbled something under his breath turning around facing the wall.

I laid beside him leaning my chin on his shoulder "Goodnight" I kissed his cheek laying down facing his back. Dean turned around wrapping his arms around my waist. We cuddled into each other. I actually felt safe in his arms slipping off into a peaceful sleep.

Morning

Dean POV

Charlie had her head resting on my chest sleeping. I started playing with her hair when Roman came in through the door with the spare key. "Hey I- Did you bang her last night?" "What? No! We talked" "About?" "Everything" "Aww, you trust her?" "I guess I do" "Do you like her?" "I think I do but... I don't wanna put her through my shitty life" "Understandable" Roman agreed.

Charlie POV

I heard everything, I was awake but I liked it when Dean was playing with my hair so I kept my eyes closed. He likes me.. but doesn't want to date me.