Taking a few deep breaths I walk into the meeting room. Things have been pretty quiet since the whole New York situation. Odin decided he was not going to have Loki back in Asgard until he was able to see he was making progress. Its hard for me, living in the same house as the man (or rather the God) that had only three months ago tried to kill us and take over the world. It seems strange that Fury thinks that he can trust Loki not to try and kill us all in our sleep. Walking into the room I see that the only spare seat is by the one and only Loki. I think i'll stand.
"Take a seat Agent Coulson" Oh yeah I forgot to mention. Phil Coulson? Yeah he's my dad. He's also dead because of Loki.
"I'll pass, thanks" Nat and Clint both eye me up as they normally do when they want to make sure I'm coping, everyone else except Tony gives me a sympathetic look. I can't quite make out what look Tony is giving me.
"So as you all know clean up of Stark tower is nearly done and you will all live there once it is completed. A whole bunch of reporters are awaiting a comment from you all about what really happened and it is vital you keep it to yourselves." I tried to hold my scoff in but was unsuccessful. Fury's head whipped around to look at me so fast he probably got whiplash.
"Something funny Coulson?" He gives me his Fury glare
"You expect us to keep something like this from everyone? Why not tell them the truth? That a mad man alien god tried to take over the world because he has daddy issues. That despite everything he's put us through we're expected to still live with him. I saw the files, you expect us to trust him enough to WORK with him? If you think I'm going to sit around and play happy family with the man who took mine away from me you're deluded. I don't care what my Father thought of you, I don't care that he trusted you and i sure as hell will not work with that psycho murderer!" My heart rate goes up and my hands get sweaty, it feels as if the walls are closing in around me. Nat and Clint immediately stood up and walked over to me.
"(Y/N) if you need to go outside go. No one is expecting you to take this news well. He is the reason your dad is gone. You don't have to be okay." Clint tells me while Nat pulls me into a hug.
"Your father is alive (Y/N)." Everyone immediately stopped talking and looked to Fury. "We needed to get you guys working together and I knew that it was the only way." I looked up to him.
"No...He can't be alive! I was there! I saw him die, I saw the blood and heard him stop breathing. He died in front of me!" Nat quickly jumped in front of me to try to calm me down before i did something I'm not 100% sure I would regret.
"(Y/N) I can promise you he is alive inf-"
"NO! STOP LYING TO ME, ALL YOU EVER DO IS LIE AND KEEP SECRETS FROM US! HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE YOU WHEN YOU LIE ALL THE TIME!! I-"
"(Y/N)" All heads turn to look behind me, I don't turn around. I know that voice. Steve jumps up.
"Agent Coulson. Its good to have you back." I'm guessing they shook hands. Everyone else followed suit. Nat and Clint stayed by me.
"Nat? Clint? Is it really him?" I whisper. Clint gives me a small smile
"Find out for yourself" Nat whispers back.
Slowly i turn around and lock eyes with my father. I look over him for a minute, he looks perfectly fine. "Dad?" I say quietly. He nods and takes a step towards me but i find myself taking a step backwards. I can't breathe, I can't think and I most definitely can't stay in this room. The walls are closing in on me and I have tunnel vision. I need to get out. So I did the only thing I knew how to do in this situation. I ran.
I ran away like a coward. I know I am going to have to face him sooner or later but I would rather it be when I can stop whatever is happening to me. I run straight into the lab so I could wait for either Bruce or Tony. I find myself not being able to sit still. I had to move or the walls started closing in on me again. So I began pacing.
"I'm surprised there isn't a hole in the floor with the way you're pacing." In walks my savior, Tony.
"I need drugs. Any drugs that will stop whatever is happening to me." Tony looks at me knowingly.
"Rapid heartbeat, Clammy hands, Hot flushes and feel like the rooms closing in on you?" I look at him in shock.
"Y-yeah how did you know that?" He walks up to me and puts a hand on my shoulder.
"That is called Anxiety. The pit in the bottom of your stomach and the overwhelming fear that something bad is going to happen. You probably have PTSD from New York as well. How's your sleep been?"
"Pretty much non-existent. If I can get to sleep I normally wake up an hour or two later with flashbacks. All I see is my dad getting killed over and over and over again. In the same way by Loki or some other horrific way. I can't get the picture of him dead out of my head and now he's alive? Or more like never died in the first place? How is that even fair? How could my dad even agree to that? Let me watch him die and not say anything?" Tony wrapped his arms around me.
"You can get through this love, its going to be hard but I know you can. I've been going through PTSD and Anxiety too, I mean aliens attacked New York and we are supposed to just act like its normal?" I laid my head on his chest beside the Arc Reactor.
"I wish I was as cool as you." He pats my back "Everyone does, don't worry" I roll my eyes.
"Okay okay no need for the big ego now" Then the door opens and the team walks in...along with my dad. Clint immediately walks over and pulls me away from Tony glaring at him and pointing.
"You better not be being a bad influence on my little sister" I wrap my arm around his back
"Of course he was, do you even know Tony? Nah he was just helping me with some medical stuff" My dad's head shot up
"Are you okay? Are you hurt?" I finally picked up the courage to walk over to him and give him a hug "I'm fine dad. I'm fine." I pulled away giving him a peck on the cheek.
"Hey Tony? Do the others know?" He nodded "Okay so I'm not actually fine, physically I am but mentally not so much. I have been having nightmares for the past 3 months and that's if I can get to sleep. I have also been having quite severe panic attacks, sometimes to the point of passing out. That's why I was talking to Tony. I thought I was like dying or something but he assured me that it's normal given everything that's happened but I thought you guys should know because we are a team now and we need to make sure that nothing can break us. However in saying that, if anyone and I mean ANYONE decides to fake die to bring us together. You'll wish you really died."
"Got it" Everyone said.
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Avengers One Shots
Fanfiction*Previously called Tom Hiddleston x Reader So decided to make this into an Avenger One Shot book but there will be some actor ones too *TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM (cutting) AND MENTION OF SUICIDE* Hey guys if you have any requests send them on in ha...
