⚠️Guys, this oneshot may contain violence to one's self and suicidal thoughts⚠️
⚠️Please do not do anything like this⚠️
⚠️Read at your own risk⚠️
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Oh well, just another day of my life that should have already ended a long time ago
Lesley went to school, like a normal girl. But the thing is, she was saved by someone before. She should have died in an assassination, but someone took the bullet for her, and she is guilty for his sacrifice. She thinks that she was the one supposed to be shot amd die, but he still saved her. She has lost interest in everything she wanted before, and she wished the guy didn't take the bullet for her, because she feels worthless anyways.
"Lesley, time to eat!", Hanabi, her dorm mate woke her up.
No one knew about the pain she is feeling, sadly.
She hides her pain with a smile
She hides her tears with her towel
She hides her wounds with her sleeves
"Okay", she answered.
How lucky she is, Hayabusa makes her see her worth
Me? I don't have family, and my friends don't even notice me anymore
Another cut, another day closer to death, don't worry Les
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"Please pass your homework to the front", Ms. Alice told the class.
Everyone passed their homework, and made noise straight after. While Lesley just sat, thinking about what to do to pass time.
The guy next to her, Gusion stared at her and asked, "Uh Lesley, you alright?"
Yeah right, I am not
She looked annoyed, but smiled and said, "I'm fine"
"You're not", he opposed.
Wait what? How'd he know?
"Pfft, tell me how would you know if I am not okay?", she said.
"Les, I've been through that before. I may not know how it would feel for you, but I know how it is deppressed. Please Les, be happy. I felt that when my dad died. Please, don't...", then his stare went to her wrist.
"Lesley! Don't cut yourself! Please, can we talk later during lunch?", he asked.
"Yeah sure. I don't have any plans anyways"
His dad died? Sad...mine doesn't even care about me and gets mad....I know parents get mad to discipline us because they love us...but... do they really want us to feel bad about ourselves? Do they want us to think that they are always right and we are always wrong? Was there never a time that I did something good? Like protect Harley from afar? Or am I really just worthless? No one loves me, a brat, a bad mannered child... a momster.
Stop overthinking Lesley, as if you aren't used to that... used to pain
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"So..how did your dad die?", Lesley asked.
"He saved a girl from an assassination. He told me to take care of her, but I don't know who she is. So from then on, I protected girls from anything. Like...", he was saying until he got cut off by Lesley.
"ASSASSINATION?! That was why I almost died 2 years ago!", she exclaimed.
"My dad died 2 years ago!", he said.
"I finally found you", he mumbled under his breath.
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"Come on Les! Stop cutting yourself!", Gusion said, raising his voice a bit.
"You mad makes me wanna cut myself even more!", she said calmly, while tracing her next cut.
"I'm sorry, I am not mad, I just don't want you to get hurt", he said, pouting.
He's kinda cute
They were at her house, she was rich, but she was just really deppressed.
Well, money can't buy you happiness
The next day, they went to school. A girl, who was clinging unto Gusion every single day since the day he talked to Lesley, went up to Lesley, and told her, "Back off! Gusion's mine! You should stay away from him you know, it would be better for the 3 of us!"
Who does this girl think she is?! His girlfriend?
"He's all yours, I would just keep my feelings away then", she said.
"Stop it Guinevere! I am not, and will never be yours!", Gusion shouted at her.
"But.. I thought you love me?", she tried to act cute.
"I love this girl beside me, who was the only one who actually understands me! We have been through almost the same, and we understand each other very well, so you..don't butt in in our conversations and never cling unto me!", Gusion told her that loooong speech.
Lesley was quite shocked, and as Guinevere slowly backed off, Gusion told Lesley, "You like me too?".
"Uh, I guess it's safe to say yes", she confessed.
"And I thought it was one-sided all along!", he happily said.
"I will make sure you won't feel the pain you felt again, and I will promise you, that you will live your happiest life and I will make sure you will see your worth", he continued.
"Thank you, for loving and understanding me. I love you", she said.
"I love you too", he said.
