The Storm

Chapter Two: Stuck inside

'She is gone she is really dead. How is that even possible? Everyone loved her so much and she had so many people there for her. Willow left it all, her friends, her family, even me. She left me... She left me? She left me!'

'How is it a girl so happy can just give up like that? Why didn't she talk to me? I thought she cared about us. How could she just leave me?'

'I should have been able to save her but instead I wasn't there for her. She died and I was not there. What kind of friend am I not to notice? God I wish she was here.'

"J, are you okay you seem a little out of it," my best guy friend Xavier asks.

"What do you think? Willow is dead and I did nothing to save her," I snap.

"You didn't know, no one did. You can't possibly blame yourself," he reasons.

"Yes actually I can blame myself," I fuss. "I knew her the best. She told me almost everything and yet last night she was upset and I did nothing. Whose falt is it but mine?"

"Not yours, she left us because of something she could not handle anymore. Its not because of you," he tries again.

"But I wasn't there for her. I didn't help her with what was hurting her; I was too stuck in myown head."

"You know J as you say this you are stuck in your head blaming yourself," Xavier explains. "So you blame yourself for not being there, then be there for her sister. Do Willow a solid and help clean up this mess."

"Okay," I sigh. "Wait why aren't you sad about it?"

"Well I am not focussed so much on mourning as I am making sure your all right. Trust me I am tourn up about it inside; maybe not as much as you, but i am still tourn up about it," he confesses.

Tears form in his eyes as his face fills with sorrow. My heart breaks again looking at him so hurt. Leaning forward I wrap my arms around his body holding him tight against me. He lets out a huge sob then another and another. Soon I join in the crying.

Our tears run out but our sorrow still remains as we let go of eachother. His blue eyes are darkened with sadness.

"J? Willow asked me to give you a letter yesterday," he wispers. "I had no idea what it ment or why she asked me to. She made me promise to never open it or to give it to you before today."

"What," I yell. "She planned her own death."

"I have no clue, all i know is this is very important for you to have," he tries to explain but I am to mad to lisen.

"Can I just have it," I growl.

He digs through his backpack before pulling out a little white envelope that only has a hand drawn rainbow in the corner. That rainbow was her signature on all her messages via person. As soon as it hits my hand I am ripping the seam.

As soon as the words are in sight my eyes fill with tears. My head spins and my heart aches with each word I read.

My body shuts down as I finish reading it and I burst into tears. So much sorrow runs through me I barely notice Xavier taking the note from my hands wrapping his arms around me. His voice fills my ears yet I know already the words his mouth forms.