Level • myg.✔️

Level • 6/6

It was probably better this way, he thought.

If they were on bad terms forever then he could never hurt her again, he reasoned.

You could grow to like Jin, who couldn't even hurt a fly, and if you two start dating, he'd treat you like a princess.

But then he thought about seeing you in the hallway everyday, holding hands with Jin or with his arm thrown around your shoulder in affection. He could imagine Jin very easily making you laugh, and you being such an idiot would love every dad joke he would throw out. The envy of the school, you both would become.

But that was okay. Even if Yoongi had feelings for you, that would be okay. Feelings are quick to squash.

Despite all of this said, Yoongi still found himself heading out the doorway and running to your house.

~~~~~~

As he saw you walking up the driveway, he cursed to himself and broke out into a full blown sprint. He yelled out your name, but you didn't even budge, only continuing on you're slow walk inside the house.

You were near your porch steps when he got to you. "No wait! Hear me out!"

You stopped moving, but you were still faced towards the door and not him. It was by now that he heard your soft sniffles, and that you were turned away because you had been crying.

"I'm really sorry Y/n." Yoongi said, forking over one of his rare apologies.

When you didn't say anything, he sighed. "I don't want us to fight, we're classmates."

You just barely managed to bitterly laugh after you heard that.

"But you're important to me in other ways too..." Yoongi admitted, feeling the red rise in his cheeks. You turned your head to the side a fraction, so you had one ear open out to him. He could see a salty tear run down your cheek, and it was gnawing him inside out.

"I'm not good with people, you know that. I say the wrong things and I push people away, doesn't matter if it's intentional or not. You should've known that."

Yoongi sighed before continuing,

"But you're different. You smile at everyone, and help whenever you can. Besides Hoseok, you seem to be the sunshine of our school. And... it really hurts when I think of you and Jin together." Yoongi confessed, and this time you turned all the way around in shock.

"I guess I like you. But I also dislike the idea of you being stuck with me."

"Don't I get a say in any of this?" You said quietly.

"I don't know why you always seem to be so interested in me. I mean, I'm just Yoongi, but you're you."

You shook your head. "I'm sick of that, you know? Being considered perfect by my peers. There's plenty wrong with me that people never notice. I shake uncontrollably whenever I give presentations, I never wanted to be school president, and I can never seem to make any real, close, friends." You sniffled, "I think you were the closest I had to one. But then I just fell for you instead, like an idiot."

Yoongi's eyes widened, "Why me?"

You stared straight into his eyes, "Two reasons. First, you made me feel normal. Because you were so cold, you had no problem treating me with just as much cold shoulder as you did everyone else. You didn't put me on a pedestal like everyone else, I thought we could've been best friends. But secondly, you made me feel special in a good way. But I wish you hadn't because then I fell for a dense idiot. In my efforts to befriend you, there have been many moments that have stuck with me. I remember when you helped me tune my guitar in the music room, and afterwards, I got you to play something on the piano. You looked so beautiful when you were playing, and when you said that was your first time playing in front of anybody your age, I was so happy. Or when it was my turn for cleaning duty, but my partner ditched. You stayed after school and did it with me. And I know I'm just rambling now bu-."

Yoongi stopped your rambling with a hug, embracing you tightly and hiding his face in your shoulder so he could lessen this giant feeling of vulnerability. You just stood there, your quiet sobs returning.

"I was so lonely." You sobbed.

"Don't worry," Said Yoongi, "I'm here now."

Fin.

~~~~
Please check out my account for other short stories like this one!