F**k this family
No trust or understanding
So called love and and withstanding
The aggrivation of separation
The inability to see what i see
To look through the smoke and see what to be
No pills help, no spoken words can ease this hell
Theres no end to the pain and shaking
Theres no way out of this well, my heart breaking
The smile im faking is easily mistaken for happiness
I forgot the feeling like i forgot breathing
The rise of my chest as i choke on my throat
Gasping for breath i couldnt catch with rope
The taste of blood so bitter in my mouth i need soap
So this fool stumbles back into the world he doesnt know
Every night i cry, shaking, my heart breaking with fear
After the fall from climbing the rock wall of hope so shear
Every day i trek up the mountaintop
Just to step off the ledge and feel myself drop
I fall from hope, to descend into pain
But i awaken at the bottom with broken legs
But my body lives on even with my soul dead
And every night i leap off the cliff
Hoping this time i die for real instead
