I stood there staring dumbfoundedly looking at the tv screen, my lips a small o. "I- I'm sorry I've been a jerk," Harry continued looking down and wringing his hands, "By now i should know that age is but a number. as long as the love is true. and, that day at the park, the last time i saw you, was unforgettable. i will never forget your smile as i told you my childhood stories, even though you already knew them all." he smiles as if remembering, "The only reason i didn't kiss you is because i felt you were too valuable, too important. I didn't want you to think i saw you as just another girl. because you aren't. you aren't like anyone iv'e ever met. and your beauty outshines any girl i've ever laid eyes on." he chuckles, "I'm still not even convinced you weren't just a dream. but if your out there i hope you hear this." He looks straight at the camera as he says the last words. i lean forward quickly and press the power button on the tv. Chloe looks at me bewildered. "Doode, whats up? Harry Styles practically proffessed his love for you on live television and you have zero emotion!" i look sadly at her. "Do you not love him?" Hannah asks. i grab my bags from Chloe's room. "No. It's becasue i love him too much." and then i walk out.
As im waiting for the bus to get to my stop i sit there trying to hold in the waterworks. I soooo did not need any of this. I was only 14! and of course i loved Harry Styles. What teen girl didn't? But my love went farther than wanting to make-out with him. at least now it did. if we ever got together how would it end up? He lived on the other side of the country! and, if i was his girlfriend, what kind of hate would i get? and imagine all the death threats! ...who was i trying to fool? i didn't care about any of that. i woul'd go throught trillions of hate just to see Harry. the real problem was my age. our four year age gap would be controversial. i mean of course its not like we'd be doing anything. but management and the press would still be unto us at ALL times. I'd ruin his career. and trust, i didn't want to go through that again. i grab the bus and head home. when i get there i feel home isn't really the place to be so i stop by, considering my parents arent home, drop off my bags, grab my saved up money, and head for the metrolink. a shopping spree would do me some good.
i stare out the train window watching the signs whiz by. finally we arrive at the L.A Union Station. i grab my small purse and walk to find a taxi.
"HOW MUCH?!" i ask the Taxi driver. I grab my wad of cash and through couple bills at him. i would NOT make the mistake of riding a taxi ever again. He charged an outrageous amount of money just to drive me from the train station to the outlet malls. i stuff my money back into my little purse and secure it to my side. I look through my phone to see i have about 20 missed calls from Chloe and Hannah. ehh, id call them later. i walked around the mall, for the first time not wanting stuff. i almost tried to force myself into buying things but nothing caught my eye. i decide instead to buy a pretzel and some starbucks. as im walking out i bump into a hard chest. "ahhh, im soo sorry. im such a clutz." i say looking up at the guy. he had emerald green eyes and brown curls. Harry. He looks down at me with his jaw hanging open. i let out what sound like a squeal. "I-I I gotta go." i say as i turn quickly around. im about to speed off when he grabs my arm. "No. Itzel, i let you leave once. im not making that mistake again."
