the eternal sunshine

enlightenment.

i'm about to start my life over
i'm moving across the country
another city, another school, another life
and you know what?
i thought i would be sad
three years ago i would cry if i new i would never see you again
but now i rejoice
i relish in the fact my life can be care free
i can be a normal teenager, lead a normal life
i can be pure.

leaving you for good was the hardest thing i've ever done
everyone told me it was long overdue
but you know what?
i think it was strong and brave of me
to stand up to the person who was putting me down
all you ever did was feed me bullshit until i finally had enough
i spit you out like a piece of gum
i am strong
and i am worthy of being loved
i deserve someone better than you ever could be.

and sure, life will still be confusing
it always will be
there are 7 billion people on this planet
but only one of me
only one red lipstick junkie with bright green eyes and a passion for all things elegant
only one bad-tempered 16 year old with a heart of gold
a dash of enlightenment can change everything
& that's what you've given me.