Winter Vacation

Day 6

Entering your room, you carefully stepped into the darkness, trying to find your way to the carefully made bed. It was a weird feeling since you clearly remembered that you never really made your bed in the morning. You considered even asking yourself if you were even in the right room, but the distinctive smell of Ziu's deodorant confirmed that you did not take a wrong turn when entering the room. Laying on the made bed, you didn't realize the figure that was breathing slowly next to you, only when you turned around you faced the outline of Zius piercing eyes that were staring into yours. 

You flinched and was about to fall off the bed, but Ziu was quicker and managed to catch you before you slipped off. In one gesture he shoved you under him and grasped your wrists, pinning them over your head. You started to panic, shuffling and struggling to get away, afraid of what Ziu was planning. His lips soon captured yours and you considered using your legs to shove him off, but you were too scared it might hurt him, so you did what you could best at that moment. 

The taller boy soon noticed the hot tears running down your face and shoved himself off you like you were the pest. Hugging your knees, you cramped yourself up and turned to cry, sniffing every now and then. Ziu felt bad to have made you cry. He never expected for you to be so sensitive considering you were apparently fine doing it with every other boy in the house, or so he thought. Quickly he spun an arm around your shoulder and hugged you tightly muttering soft sorrys into your ear. He gently laid you back on the sheets and covered yours and his body with a blanket as he hugged you close into his chest for you to let it all out. It never really crossed his mind that his plan could have so much of an impact on you, as he just wanted to belong to the rest of the boys that he could potentially get chosen in the end and right now it seemed that he had really possibly lost whatever chance he had with you anyways.

It took a while for you to fully calm down, but you eventually did and Ziu noticed how you slowly started to relax into his arms and your breathing lost speed, yet he still continued to brush over your head and calming you down, regretting everything his mind has perused him to do. As you were on the verge to fall asleep, Ziu finally spoke up.

" (Y/N)… I… " he paused, finding it very hard to express his feelings with words. He always had problems handling conversations and especially when it came to his emotions, partly because he didn't even know himself why he did it. There was no 'one' explanation for it.

"You could say that I am jealous, but that is a strong understatement. I think desperate is a better word. It's just that, I know you for far longer and I…" once again he hesitated, but this time you gave him his full attention as you looked him straight into the eyes, lighten by the moonlight that crept through the curtains. He certainly didn't want to say it like this, as he always imagined confessing to you, while holding a bouquet of flowers and going to that amusement park you seemed to like so much. But if he didn't say it now, he would probably never go anywhere accompanied by you.

"I am in love with you, for the longest time now…" 

Ziu gripped you tighter as he didn't know how you would react and he certainly didn't want to be pushed away. For the first time, you hugged him back as you relaxed into his embrace, almost amused that this was probably the first time you both were consciously holding one another. " It wouldn't be fair now to answer you. I... I will decide when this trip is over since my feelings are all over the place right now", you said and turned around, expecting him to leave to his own bed like everyone else did so far, yet surprisingly, two arms swung around you once again and held you tight. Slowly decreasing breathing was blowing against your hair and you cuddled yourself into the mold of Ziu, feeling bad over the fact that you made him feel like he had to do this in order to get noticed. This was definitely not something that Ziu would ever do. You decided to rest, yourself, and slowly drift into dreamland.