Choose me she Lives, Choose her she dies.

Prologue

It was freezing cold this afternoon like how numb I am right now, nothing seems alive for me everything is gray and lifeless. Its just another boring day and it was ended when the bell rang that cues for the students that class has been dismissed.

Like a normal school and students, cheerful screams filled the air of silence, joyous laughter invade the grumpy groan of those students who dislikes boring discussion like me, Everyone was happy but me, They bid goodbyes to each other and some of my classmates tap my shoulder and says their byes with concern on there voices but I didn't respond not because I don't want to but my voice seems hide it self somewhere deep inside my throat like it has brain on itself and doesn't want to show up, even a single gesture like nod or anything nothing came out of me as if I was really tired making every muscle of my body doesn't want to move.

I really thought living like a half life is just a cliché and an expression of those over reacting human when they meet downfall, but little did I know I became one and a living proof of being a lifeless creature who's soul was lost in the place where darkness and vain is present, no hope but pain, no light but shadows, no lullaby but screams of terrified and hunger souls, no fairytale but a nightmare and no love but lonesome and sadness.

I was awaken in my deep thought when my phone rang, I took a peek who sent a message, it was unknown number saying

"You are mine :)"

In just three words its like a magic that made my face muscle form a smile but my traitor tears starts falling like there is no tomorrow, The familiar pain stabbed my heart again I clutch my chest to ease the pain I'm feeling right now but how stupid I am to think it can ease this painful deep wound in my heart, this is too much for me, I'm still wondering how can I still be alive through all this shits, I harshly wiped my tears and I immediately fixed my things then returned my phone inside my bag them storm out the classroom and went to my dorm room.

Its funny that you already knew half of my story but you haven't any clue of who I am and what's my name. I am Charmagne Lopez by the way, 19 years old, incoming 2nd year college in Architecture, And proud to be Bisexual. Well judge me all you want, I don't care as if every LGBT member have a choice to be like this, We are still humans created by only Almighty God Father, we are still in the same level in the eyes of our God.

As I reached my dorm room I quickly jumped into my bed and tried to sleep but my phone rang again with continues incoming messages and chats. I got curious so I sat down and fished out my phone from my bag and took a peek, it was from the same unknown number and same person saying

"Can I court you?"
"Please? Pretty please?"
"Please be mine!"
"Hi!"
"Please notice me"
"I saw you walking alone but too shy to walk with you :("

And etc. It made me smile but feel sorry for this guy, I turn my phone off so I can sleep peacefully. I dozed off so fast and waken up my by alarm clock, so I immediately took my towel and things to take a shower in a common bathroom few steps away from my room, I walked to the bathroom half asleep and lazy me I bumped into someone.

"Oh shoot! I'm sorry!" We both said in chorus and picked up my things scattered on the floor from the impact. when I'm sure I picked all my things I immediately stood up and looked at the person I bumped into, and to my surprise, for all the people that God has made, I bumped into her, how lucky I am

"Cha...Charmagne" she stuttered and whisper as she recognize me.

I just smile and force my feet to take a step when it froze seeing her,

Common stupid feet! Walk! Don't you know how to walk! Stupid eyes! Stop looking at her! Stupid knees! Stop being jelly! Ugh! Damn It! Oh Goddess! Why is she beautiful! Oh damn! Brain stop being shit! Stop drooling at her! But her eyes looking straight at me as if she's seeing through my soul, that lovely nose I always want to pinch, that irresistible lips I wanna kiss all----what the hell charmagne! Stop all of this!