Choose me she Lives, Choose her she dies.

Chapter 2

"Thank you for today martin! Till next time!" I said and wave him goodbye as I enter my dorm

"See you again tomorrow!" He said and turn his back to me and walk.

"Where have you been?" I jumped to my surprise when I heard someone speak at my back.

"Oh Geez! You scared me to death! What the hell are---hmmmmm" My eyes widen when her lips claim mine. She pushed me to the walls and kissed me harshly I pushed her away with all my might before my body surrender to her again.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!" I angrily hissed at her

"I..I'm sorry... I.. I just.. I'm hurt" she said.. looking at the floor.

"Hurt? Wow! I didn't know you know that word! The hell with you Nattaly! Stop this bullshit! Aren't you happy dumping me and chose my brother over me?! You know what! Get lost! Get out of my room!" I said and stormed out to my bed.

"I have no choice! You don't know nothing" she said between her sobs

"Cut the bullshit! I'm trying to move on so stop ruining it! A kiss won't take all the pain you caused me!" well actually yes, some part of me is still hoping that she'll come back to me

"I..I'm so sorry baby... Please forgive me...I ... I love you so much.." I really want to believe you but you broke my trust and I don't know anymore between your truth and your lies

"Wow! Big word! Do you love me? Huh? Is that your way of saying lies? I'm done with you----" again she stops me with a kiss and pinned me down to the bed and sat on my stomach. so I bit her lips

"What was that for?!" She hissed

"Get off me," I said with full of command

"Sorry but I won't," She said and smirk... Oh, not that smirk...

"Get the fuck off me"

"Really baby... You can resist me? Hmmm?" She whispers through my ears that made me shivers down through my spine.

"d...dodon't call me baby!"

"C'mon baby, don't fight it, I know you badly want it" she whispers between her butterfly kisses to my ear down to my neck made me weak

CHARMAGNE DONT FALL FOR HER BAIT! PUSH HER! PUSH HER AWAY BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!

I cheered myself not to surrender... But her lips and voice are tempting... I can't deny that her touch still has a huge effect on me. Her voice makes me weak and her kisses make me crazy... I miss our hot mome----cut the crap Charmagne!

I pushed her once again that made her fell on the ground.

"If you still think you can own me like how you own me before, well you're wrong! Aren't you satisfied? Why are you still bothering me?" After a long battle for not tearing up in front of her, the tears start falling like it has a mind of its own.

"I fucked up baby, and I'm sorry... I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for believing the lies of your brother, I'm sorry for choosing to hurt you like this for all I know I wanted to protect you, I want you to be safe but every second I spent with him I only think about you, I thought It was for the best, but it's not, he just used me to break you into pieces, and I'm sorry for letting him used me. Seeing you hurt like this made my heart shatter into pieces. I just did it because I love you and to save you. Believe it or not but everything I did was for your own good. He said if I won't break up on you he will kill you." she kneeled right before me and explained everything to me.

"I saw you kissing him! And you look at him with so much love and happiness" I clenched my jaw

"Those we're just acts to make him believed that I'm over with you. And I tried to love him but my heart belongs to you and I can't deny the fact that I am still into your baby. You're my everything, I can't afford to lose you. I'm sorry for being a coward and didn't fight beside you. Believe me, baby, each second passed I regret everything I did to hurt you." She said and cried so hard.

"I'm sorry... Just leave.." I said and for hell where did it come from! Isn't this what you want?! You wanted her back! But hell it hurts! I can't believe my brother could do that! I know Maximus cant do that, I know him too well, he never hurt me or even hurt me, he loves me so much, he's always my hero until the day natally came and ruined everything.

"I..I hope you can still forgive me, baby... I...I'll be waiting for you" She said and walked slowly towards the door with a heavy heart.

I hope this is the right thing to do. I hope I'm right.. I know my brother, he even risks his life for me just to save me from the bullies in grade school. I can't imagine he would kill me because of a girl. but it's not just a girl, the girl I treasured the most. I can't believe he can actually do that.

I don't know what to do anymore I'm too confused and overwhelmed from everything

I let myself fell from the floor screaming silently grabbing my hair crying my heart and eyes out, Why am I suffering like this! isn't it too much for me? is this actually a test or a cursed!? can someone fucking tell me what the hell is this! is this the reason why people commit suicide!? damn! the feeling I felt right now is beyond compare to a painful death! I don't want to question God's will but I can't help but complain and I'm really sorry for that God, Please, please help me to surpass this. guide me to the light of hope because I'm slowly drowning from the darkness of pain and anger. I'm so alone and lost. I have no one to cry and lean on I'm too tired to live I'm too tired in everything

"oh God, Help my soul" as I whisper and let my eyes close to letting my body be drowned to darkness.