It was early Spring around our house this time of the year. It was still cold, and I still wore layers everywhere I went, and I bundled up my kids whenever they went with me somewhere on the weekends and when they went to school.
Jordan and Kadin had just turned 5 and started kindergarten that September and they seemed to be doing fine. They were pretty amazing kids.
Sophia was now 1 and a half and was the absolute cutest thing in the world and Ray loved her so much it was crazy. He hated going on business trips for the specific reason that he hated leaving the kids, I guess he hated leaving me, too.
And then there was my baby boy I was pregnant with now, Uriah. I went with that name because it was biblical and I loved it and the kids had told me about it when they got out of Sunday school one morning. I was trying to make God more part of their life. I needed it, Ray needed it, and I wanted my family to have some sort of structure when it came to religion.
Ray and I had been married going on a year and I guess you could say we were still in the little honeymoon stage a little. But we loved each other, that was apparent.
Sophia couldn't talk, she made noises and say a few words, but as far as making sentences that weren't in the basic 1-2 year old language, I'd have to say no. But she was learning with the little educational videos she watched with Ray. It was cute seeing him so excited about her and just our family in general.
Back to me being pregnant. I was about months, and I was definitely showing. And I loved my stomach. It was one of my favorite parts about being pregnant. I just loved touching my belly. My kids did too, and so did Ray. I liked being pregnant. That, and Ray was right there when I needed him, even though I could do whatever I wanted, but he just wanted to help with me.
Ray and his business had skyrocketed when Jay Z, Blue, Beyonce', and Er (pronounced Air) had been seen sporting his clothing line and when asked who they were wearing, and they said Ray's clothing line.. It was over with. And he was now officially famous. Paparazzi, fans, and groupies included, that caused us to move into a house in a suburb that mostly famous people stayed in. it was under the radar, and it was nice.
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"Baby, put your toys up." I was in the kitchen cooking dinner for the evening. Ray had been at the office since the night before wrecking his brain around an idea he had woken up in the middle of the night for. And he just had to leave. But he had called a few minutes before and said he was at the entrance gate.
"Okay mommy." Kadin hopped down out her chair and started putting her toys in her downstairs toy-bin.
I heard the door front door clothes, and Jordan popped her head up, "daddy!" she ran to the front door.
"Danny, wait!" I groaned and picked up Sophie out her walker and walked to the front door.
"Mommy daddy's home!" she hung onto his neck, and then in came Kay, who Ray picked up too. "I missed you."
"I missed you more babygirl." he chuckled and gave them both kisses and then sat them down. "hey baby." he kissed Sophia on her cheeks and walked with me back into the kitchen, "hey baby." he turned around and gave me a deep kiss, then pulled away, "what you making?"
"Salmon and potatoes, go wash your hands, it's almost done."
"Aye, come wash your hands." he was talking to the girls. They walked with him into on of the downstairs bathrooms. And then I had that feeling. I pushed passed them and rushed into the bathroom and started throwing up. "Um, ya'll go to the other bathroom." I heard him sit Sophie back down and then come into the bathroom and hold my hair out the way.
"I'm so pregnant!" I yelled and sat on the floor. I looked at Ray and pointed outside the door to the bathroom closet. He got me a small towel and wet it and then handed it to me. I wiped my mouth with it, then handed it back to him, "thanks." I said and then he helped me up. "I'm fine, just pregnant."
"brush your teeth so I can kiss you again." he laughed and then left the bathroom and picked up Sophie. I stayed and brushed my teeth really good before I went back into the kitchen and took out all the food.
"Food's done."
"Mommy I can fix your plate." Danny looked at me then smiled.
I smiled back, "no baby, that's okay. Thank you though."
"Okay." she climbed into her chair at the table.
I went to start fixing the girls' food, but Ray stopped me, "I got it, baby. Just go sit down."
I didn't want to sit down, but the look Ray gave me told me that I might as well go ahead and sit, "Don't forget you have to smash up Sophie's food."
"I know." he smiled and lightly pushed me to the sofa in the living room.
Sitting there made me sleepy, so I went ahead and laid down and took a little nap. More like I went to sleep for a good four hours.
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"You good?" Ray asked when he walked into our bedroom. I nodded my head and breathed out, "you sure?"
"Yeah.. I'm just tired."
"You went to sleep for a good four hours today."
"I know, but the baby, he just makes me tired."
"Well come here." he plopped in the bed and opened his arms. I smiled at him before I laid my head on his bare chest and kissed it, "how was your day?"
"Well.. I took Sophie to the park, then got her some chicken nuggets, and of course the didn't eat all of them, but yeah. Then when we got home, I put her in her bouncer and folded some clothes and then went back to town because I had to get salmon, then I came back home and played with Sophie then I cooked and napped and now we're here talking about my day." I looked up at Ray and smiled. He just laughed at me, "what did you do today?"
"We came up with some stuff to sell during the summer and set up a photo shoot in Brazil."
"Brazil? Baby, why is it so far away?"
"It has the right background that I want.."
"But Brazil?"
"I'll only be gone for a week, baby, I promise."
"Pwomise?" I asked in a baby voice.
"I pwomise." he laughed and then gave me a little kiss. And I kissed him back, and then series of kisses later we were making out not so aggressively. it was just playful.
"Hm." I pulled away, "I'm tired."
"Nah." he kissed me again, and I laughed in the kiss and kissed him back. "We ain't done it since we conceived Uriah."
"I've been busy."
"Too busy to make love to your husband?"
"You're so cliche." I giggled and kissed him and turned over, "goodnight Rayan."
"Nah, come here." he brought me back onto his chest and let me lay down, "how you feeling?"
"Pregnant." I giggled. "And horny and tired."
"I heard horny." he looked down at me.
"And tired, you also heard tired." I laughed, "I like being pregnant though.. I just think I like being a mom to a baby."
"I liked getting you pregnant." he smirked at me, "so what you doing tomorrow?"
"Baby shopping." I smiled at him, "think you could stay with the girls for a few hours, since it's Saturday?"
"I love staying with my babies. Of course." he kissed my forehead, "now, you tired, get some sleep."
"I love you baby."
"I love you more." he kissed my forehead and put his arm around me and we slept just like that.
We had changed so much over that year and a half, I felt good about it.
