I looked at the phone and thought about what she just said and hung up. This woman was crazy. Absolutely crazy.
But you wanna know what's more crazy?
The fact I could do this all over again. What was wrong with me?
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I put the girls to sleep and then went downstairs, grabbed a bear, and watched tv for a few hours.
"Damn" I looked at the time and stood up and turned off the tv. I jogged upstairs pretty quick and took a deep breath before walking into Aileen and I's bedroom.
"I'm starving." I heard her say after she turned over, scaring me to death.
"Holy shit." I grabbed my chest, "you're supposed to be sleep. What the hell?"
"I'm hungry, baby." she went to climb out the bed but I stopped her, "Babe."
"What you want?"
"I dunno." she pushed me away a little and grabbed her slippers and put her hand on her stomach and started the penguin walk towards the stairs.
"Baby, be careful." I put my hand flat on her lower back, "please."
"Thanks baby." she smiled at me. I gave her a kiss and helped her on down the stairs. "Ya know, we really need to get his room set up this weekend," she said, sitting on a chair by the island, "if we keep putting it off, he's gonna have to sleep with like with Sohpie." she side-eyed me with a smile that could kill. The smile I fell in love with.
I chuckled slightly and smiled back at her after putting some Chinese in the microwave, "oh really?"
"Yes." she smiled, a genuine smile. "You didn't like that so much."
"You weren't letting me hit anyway, woman."
"You men and sex." she shook her head, "but really. We gotta get the room set up."
"I know, baby." I kissed her temple, "Imma get on it this weekend."
"Okay." she smiled without showing her teeth, "my Chinese is gonna burn babe." I took it out the microwave and grabbed a fork and handed her the plate, "we should do yoga."
I was taken back and looked at her. "Yoga? The hell for?"
"They have a class," she took a big bite of chicken, "for pregnant woman. They say it helps for the back pains. I had a friend that took it." she spooned some rice into her mouth, "she said it helped."
"Baby, chew first, then swallow." I laughed at her..
"Whatever." she swallowed, "did you hear what I said, though?"
"I got it." I chuckled, "You almost done?"
"I just started eating. No nigga." she continued to eat.
We sat for the remainder of the time and talked about stuff. I looked at her and smiled while she was eating. She didn't see me, but her beauty was vibrant. It was late in the evening, dark everywhere else but the lights above the island in the kitchen, but every time she looked at me, I'd smiled and chuckled a little. Resulting in her giggling and spooning more food in her mouth. I don't know how I could be so stupid to cheat on her again. I swear if I saw that beautiful face in the mist of temptation... I would have never... I would have never done it.
I was ashamed.
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I lied to Aileen that morning. I told her I needed to go to the office and check on something, but I didn't.
I went to meet Jacinda at her place. I had a feeling this was gonna be a long day.
"You came!" she shrieked and hugged me. I rolled my eyes and pulled her off and walked inside her apartment. I started having flashbacks of us stumbling in there and abruptly closing the door, having sex for hours and then showering and leaving.
And going back to my family.
"We need to talk."
"Okay." she said excited, "sit down."
"Nah, I'm good."
"Oh, okay." he fiddled with her fingers, "what do we need to talk about?"
"We have to stop." I sat down, even after I said I wouldn't. "I can't keep doing this to my family!"
"No!" she grabbed my hands, "Ray.. Don't do this. I won't tell anyone, I swear! I love you!"
"You don't love me." I pulled her hands away, "I love my wife... and my kids.. We don't love each other."
"What about everything we've been through?!" she shrieked, "everything that's happened over the years?!"
"I love my wife."
"You love our sex." she smiled at me.
"We're not doing this. I can't. I have to end this now.. And get back to my family."
"What about our family?" I heard her say as I was walking to the door.
I turned around and looked at her, "what?"
She smiled, "We're gonna have a family.." she touched her stomach, "in about 7 months."
"The hell you mean?"
"I'm pregnant." she smiled bigger, "and I know it's yours."
