𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐨𝐭'

𝐬 𝐢 𝐱

joeys pov

"I don't get it" I told myself while looking at the ceiling of my room

"Why doesn't she want to tell me"I say again

"I should of never went to hers"I say

"She must hate me"I say again

Lexs pov

"Lexi are you ready to go back to school today?"my mom says while walking into my room

"Mom"I say lifting my head up from my pillow with a shaking voice

"Yes"she says going over to me

I wanna tell her.

"What time do you get home today"I say

But I failed

"5 why"she says

"Just curious"I say getting up as she walks out of my room

At school

"Don't get in trouble again"my mom says as I get out of the car

"Hey"jack says walking up to me

"Hey"I say

"Are you hanging with me and Noah today"he says making me completely freeze

"Lex?"jack says

"Oh um I can't today I have to get home or my mom will get mad"I lie

"Ok I'll tell Noah"he says before walking away

3 period

"I heard that Noah and this girl had sex in his car"I hear this girl say to another girl

"Omg who do you think it is"she says

"Vanessa?"she says

"No"the other one says

I get a Flash back...

"Get off me"I scream as we forces himself on me

I start to think why me

"Alexis"I get interrupted by the teacher

"Yes"I say looking at him

"Are you with us?"he says making the whole class look at me

"Uh yea"I say making him go back to whatever he was doing leaving half the class still looking at me

After school

"Hey lex"I hear tom says

"Hey"I say adding a smile

Tom is my best guy friend he's been there for me when I needed someone but I hated when I kept secrets from him especially this one

"I need to talk to you"he says grabbing my arm but not harshly

"Yeah"I say looking at him

"What's going on with you and Noah"he says quietly

"N-nothing"I say as my heart starts beating fast

"I have never seen you two together in our group"he says

"Like when he enters you leave"he adds

"Look Jer I Can't say anything I'm not allowed to"I say looking at him with a serious face

"I won't say anything I promise I just want to know what's wrong with you"he says worried

"That day I went home last year after school when we hanged out the day after the party"I say trying not to cry

"Yeah"he says not looking away from me

"Noah offered me a ride and I accepted it"I say with my voice starting to shake

"H-h-he"I try to say but can't

"Raped you"tom says grabbing my hand and making eye contact with me

"Did you tell jack?"he says worried

"I can't"I say as tom hugs me

"Your the girl he said he had sex with in his car"he says

"I'm going to fucken kill him"he adds making his hands form into fists

"It's ok"I say

5 months later

Tom and Vanessa were the only ones who knew about it

I still couldn't tell Joey I was afraid he would think I'm a slut

I haven't talked to Joey in 5 months, I still see him at school at home and even in classes but never have the guts to even look him in the eyes

I still feel bad for not telling my close ones this but I know it will be better not to

Joey has a girlfriend now Allison. I haven't talked to her after she said she had sex with jack

Jack was like my brother never had any feelings for him even when every girl at school had a crush on him.

Tom, tom Holland every girls dream to have it with I've never had any feelings for him either but sometimes I do.

I just hope for Joey to break up with her to be with me . Yes I know I might of gotten a little crush on him these couple of months.

I've never had done anything sexual with anyone before except for what happened

But i just wanna save it for someday when I'm ready to do it

Just not now.

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