That Sunday night I couldn't sleep. I'm his mate. What if I'm the Luna. I'd own an entire pack. I have no leadership skills, nor am I a wolf to begin with. No one would take me seriously. I need to break it off with Dean. Tell him I'm not interested in being a Luna or if I'm not one, I'd say I'm not interested in dating a wolf. I mean public speaking is some scary stuff. I'd have to tell him I just want a normal life. All I want to do it study, get a job, find a man, have kids and die. I just want the original life. Oh come on Kim. Listen to yourself. Is that really what you want?
The thought of ending things seemed so hard and somehow I knew this would hurt me too. Maybe that's not for the best. I groaned in frustration. I ran out to the deck and the loudest I could possibly scream I yelled. "Why me!" One of our neighbours told me to shut up. So I walked back in my room and tried to sleep.
The sky was dark and the trees were dying. The winter snow breeze froze everything in its path. I walked in the house to a warm fire but a cold welcoming. "Nathan I am not in love with you anymore. You have not only destroyed me but you have destroyed this family." Mom yelled, with hot tears running down her cheeks. "Mom, dad" I whispered. They both ignored me. I said their names louder but they still ignored me. They just yelled to each other louder and louder. I screamed their names until my voice was hurting, but they still ignored me. "MOM, DAD. Listen to me! Why are you never here?! PLEASE!" I felt this wet warm feeling on my wrists. Blood started pouring out of my nose, my ears, my eyes and old wounds reopened. I started feeling dizzy and tried. I fell in my own pull of blood. "Mom, dad,....please." But they still ignored me. The ground underneath me opened and I felt myself falling further and further away from life. Before I could hit the cold hard ground...
I screamed awake feeling tears fall down my cheeks. Oh thank goodness. It was just a dream. I looked to the door waiting for mom to run in. But she didn't. She just...ignored me. I glanced at my left wrist seeing the faint scars that once ruined my life.
I thought I would stop having that dream. But of cause I didn't. That dream was like a fly that just couldn't stop buzzing at your ear. Some times it would go away but most of the time it would come back. I looked to the clock. 6:30am. Well there is no chance of me falling asleep again. I got out of bed and went to the shower first. I decided I wanted to look pretty today. So I put effort into blow dying and straightening my hair. I put the make up Chloe gave me for my 17th. I put my dark blue skinny jeans and my light v-neck top on. I grabbed all my gear walked down stairs to see mom sitting on the dining room chair.
"You had that dream again, didn't you?" I nodded once and quickly started making my way to the front door and to the car. She knew I had that dream yet she choose to ignore it, just as she choose to ignore me in my time of need and desperation.
I realised I was at school way to early. It was only 8am. I had a whole half an hour to kill. "Kim!" Chloe called. "Are you feeling alright. This is twice in a row that you manage to come early and wow you actually put effort in looking good." She laughed at her own joke like it was the funniest thing in the world. I was kinda annoyed with Chloe at the moment. I tried to help her at Sam's party but instead she let that loser jerk use her. As if reading my mind Chloe started. "About Friday. Well I was..."
"Drunk," I interrupted, "stupid," I continued, "inlove." I said sarcastically.
"Sam broke up with me Kim." I gasped, regretting the nasty things I just said. "Your right, I am inlove and yes I am stupid. I know I was drunk, but after he hurt you I said I didn't want to sleep with him. Than he broke up with me on the spot and started hanging with some slut." Chloe burst into tears and started crying on my shoulder. I felt so bad. Man Sam is such a jerk. After awhile I spook up.
"Hey Chloe, his not worth it. Ok." she nodded and wiped away her remaining tears.
"I think I need to be alone for a while." I nodded understanding completely.
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Werewolf"This is it" I thought. I watched as the love of my life descends to the cold snow. A loud piercing scream escaped my lips. I used all of my energy to run to his side. But I was too late. "Please." I begged knowing it was hopeless. "Come back to me...
