I know I am not perfect but I try my best to perfect the things that I am doing. God has always been kind to me and I thank her for always blessing me.
Sometimes, trying harder isn't just enough. Sometimes, feeding our empty heart with the lies is the only thing left to do. There are ways we search just to make sure that we have given our best.
I fear a lot. I overthink a lot. I have much more important thing in my life to focus on. But how do I let this feeling just touch soothingly and not go down deep.
Stars, beautiful but far away. Millions of stars cover our galaxies and yet we wholly rely on the sun. Cause its the nearest to us and it give us what we need to feed our bodies. And stars, they might have what we need but we could never have it from them. Maybe distance matters. Maybe this is how it feels to be connected but not close. Maybe this is how nature teaches us to admire and love someone far away from us. Somethings in life are just made for admiring , I guess.
Have you ever heard someone fantasizing sun?.. Probably No. Cause that's how we are. We love the one that is unattainable just to realize that we are powerless. Just to remind our heart that we have been wanting the wrong one all our life. And I don't know if I will ever get to be near that star. I am not sure if I will ever get to tell the star how much it really mean to me. What if it has already been told by someone else? What if I am too late? What if someone's already near that star? What if the moon had already received it's light and is reflecting brighter than my eyes?...
