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ice cream

4/6/18

today we went out to ice cream. after your mom and i stopped crying, we locked up the shop and headed to the ice cream place around the corner.

ironic that you bring us to the place of our first date, jang mi.

jang mi was our leader. we followed her into the line. we ordered our ice creams and sat down.

i remember asking you, kyung tae, what kind of flavor ice cream you like the most.

you said cookie dough.

jang mi clung on to kyung tae's hand the entire time. her hands were turning white from griping them so tightly.

i offered to pay for our ice cream. jang mi said no.

we sat down at a booth with ripped leather seats. the wallpaper was peeling towards the top corners of the walls. i breathed in the air of history. this place held a lot of memories for us, jang mi.

i smiled at you, kyung tae. i watched ice cream run down your chin as it melted. i watched your mother wipe it off with the hem of her shirt.

jang mi, i know you will never forgive me or even trust me for that matter, but i need you to know that i'll always be here for you and kyung tae.

every birthday, every sickness, every injury, every award ceremony, every promotion, every dinner, every breakfast, everything.

every step you take i want to walk beside you.

so i've thought about it. i'm going to leave the band. we weren't going well anyway. jin's going to service, namjoon's falling apart, yoongi and his boyfriend can't hide forever, jungkook's with caroline, jimin and adriana are pretty much married, and hobi's fallen into depression.

i think we're going to break up.

it needed to happen anyway. we all love each other so very much. we will still be brothers and fool around on monday nights on V Live. we will still wake up at 2 A.M. to dance and work out because we can't sleep.

i don't want to leave them. i wanna make music with them for the rest of our lives. but it's not realistic.

even the craziest people realize what they've broken.

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