I Have Tasted the Forbidden Fruit

Chapter 14: Dark Times and New Discoveries

*abuse in this chapter

(Samuel P.O.V)

I layed in my bed staring at the ceiling thinking about the kiss Damien and I shared just a couple of days ago. It was so heart felt and wonderful. I looked over to the dresser he made me and smiled. It wasn't small but it wasn't large either. He stained it a deep brown color and added to drawers to it. It still was empty but it now had a bowl for water placed on it. He was really good with his hands.

It was like he could put an image in his head of what he wanted to create and his hands would make it. I later learned after I got here that he made the chest at the foot of my bed. It amazes me at how much deatail he puts into it and so much time and work.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I almost didn't hear the crashing that happened downstairs. I stood up and tip toed down the stairs and peaked outside of my door; when I noticed it was clear I silently walked down the hall way. No one was in the sitting room and Damiens room was empty as well. I heard some movement down the hall where Mr. Reices room was.
*abuse starts now*

As I got closer to the door I heard the talking of slurred words and whimpering. The door was ajar so I was able to see into the room. Damien was hunched down on the floor on his knees clutching his sides with his mouth open but no sounds coming from him except little whimpers. His shirt was off and I saw old bruises and newly forming ones. Blood was coming from his mouth and sweat on his for head making his hair stick to it. His father stood over him and began unbuttoning his pants.
(Damien P.O.V)

How can life be great one moment and then awful the next? How can my light be blown away and my world be surrounded my darkness in a matter of seconds? Maybe it is just the way my life will work. Maybe I am not meant to have light in my life. My sanity is slowly breaking. I am slowly becoming weaker and weaker and I can't handle this much longer. The only thing keeping me glued together is Samuel.

My Samuel.

I feel the kick to stomach and the kick to my sides. I wrap my arms around myself like I am hugging myself. My mouth is open but only small whimpers come out. I taste my blood on my tongue and the sweat on my body.

Please. If theres a God out there. Anywhere. Let me die. I can't do this anymore.

I hear my father unbutton his pants and see them fall to the floor. He yanks my head back and forces himself into my mouth. I gag and try to pull away but he forces my movements still with a kick to my groin. I cry out and he forces himself deeper.

I close my eyes and leave my body. Leave this world and surround myself with thoughts and visions of Samuel. His dark eyes. His angel like laugh. His smile. His touch. His touch that makes me whole. The touch that makes me feel pure and undirty. The touch that keeps me sane. And most recently the kiss we shared.

Samuel said I was strong but in all honesty I am so weak. I can't stand up to my father and I don't know why. I feel like I am eleven again when touches me and I just cowar in fear. Fear is what consumes me at night. Fear I'll be here when makes it home like tonight. Fear people will know. Fear Samuel will know I am dirty and disgusting. Fear.

My father finished and back handed me one last time and told me to leave. On shaking legs I got up and walked out with my head down. To tired to go to the lake I make my way to my room but was stopped but a hand on my shoulder. I started to scream but was shushed by Samuel.

"What are you doing down here?" I whispered.

"Uhhh..um I heard and saw what happened Damien. I want to help you now." he said. Oh god...he saw. He knows now. I fell to my knees and sobbed. He crouched down and picked me up. Instead of going to my room he took me to his. I clutched to his shirt like he would disappear and cried into his neck.

"I-i-i c-can't t-take much m-m-more of this." I sobbed into his neck. He sat on his bed and stretched out his legs. I sat on his lap and wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck and held tightly to him. I calmed down and focused on breathing in and out. My face was still buried in his and his hand was rubbing comforting circles on my back.

"I feel myself loosing my sanity Samuel. I'm slowly breaking and I don't know what to do or how to handle it. I would have done broke if you weren't here. Your keeping me together Samuel. God I need you. I feel so selfish but I can't help it." I said. He pulled me tighter to his body and just held onto me.
(Samuel P.O.V)

He was wrapped around my body and held me like I was his life line. In a way I probably was.

"I feel myself loosing my sanity Samuel. I'm slowly breaking and I don't know what to do or how to handle it. I would have done broke if you weren't here. Your keeping me together Samuel. God I need you. I feel so selfish but I can't help it." I heard him say. I pulled him tighter to my body and just held him. After a couple of minutes I pushed him away held him in front of me. The blood had on his face but he was still beautiful. I kisses his lips and then cut on the side of his lips. I kissed the bruise on his cheek from the slap. I kissed the yellow bruises on his chest.

I layed him down and leaned over him. I looked in his eyes to see if he was ok with this. All he did was nod and rubbed his hand down my cheek.

I leaned down again and kissed the the new bruises forming down his stomach.

"Your are beautiful Damien. Never think you're not. Your heart is beautiful. Your soul is beautiful. You. Are. Beautiful." I told him. I kissed his waist where not new bruises were but recent ones. I moved up and kissed the new bruises on his left side.

"I have never met a person like you. So sweet. So gentle. So caring." I moved to his right side and kissed the new bruises there.

"I need you Damien. Never leave me." I said and lifted him back up to me. Tears were in his eyes and he kissed me again. I leaned over and grabbed the bowl from my dresser. I took my shirt off and dipped it in the water. I dabbed it over the cut on his lip and wiped the blood from his chin.

When his face was clean his chin was shadowed with a purple bruise. I kissed down his chin and gently pulled him towards me; careful not to hurt him. I kissed up to his lips and moved them againist his. He placed his hands on my chest and kissed me back. I felt his tongue on my bottom lip and I pulled away slightly shocked but placed my lips back on his.

He slowly ran his tongue over my bottom lip. I opened my mouth a little and felt it rub againist my tongue. My heart was pounding and I felt something in my stomach that was never there before. Like a tingle moving across it down my legs. I moved my hands to his neck and pulled his head closer. I ran my tongue over his fascinated by what I was feeling. His heart pounded againist my chest and he pulled away and rested his forhead againist mine.

"I've never done that before." he said and smiled at me.

"I haven't either. It was amazing." I said. He linked our hands together and placed them on his chest.

"This is what you make me feel Samuel. And so much more." he said. I smile and placed our hands over mine.

"This is how you make me feel Damien. And so much more." I said.

"Never let me go Samuel. If I go to the dark bring me to the light. I don't want to be alone anymore." he said to me. I didn't have to respond. I just pulled him back into my arms and kissed the side of his head.

We stayed like this for hours. Maybe minutes. Or even seconds. I'll never know but I didn't care. I love this boy more than anything in this world. More than my own life now. No matter what I will never let him go.