Finding Myself Again

Part 2

"Whatever..." I mumbled, consoling myself. Then I fearlessly stared straight to her intimidating pair of eyes. I stopped my very best not to swallow the lump in my throat.

The damaged has been done. So I accepted my fate that something bad might actually happened to me like mean girls usually do when an undeniably gorgeous newbie like me stood in their way, it served me right though for blatantly flirting.

Hehe, couldn't help it. Who knows that the ravishing guy is visually impaired to be her boyfriend?

The dark haired guy standing next to her, who was wearing a black ripped jeans plus denim fitted shirt plus cool black leather jacket and white sneakers, was as hot as the sun.

He was no idea how he was glowing due to the moisture exuded through the tiny pores of his unblemished skin. Honestly, I could stare at his handsome face all day.

"Who do you think you are? To tell you, never in history someone steps on me.. You know why?" the way the words came out of her mouth were shouting danger to my senses. She slowly took a stride towards me. Pathetic! Did she really think that taunted me?

"Then kindly remember this date for breaking the history." I proudly spoke as I stood up to my chair then we came face to face. I was far from threatened that she was a couple of centimeters taller than me.

She pushed my small shoulder with great strength, due to its force, it pushed me to the edge of the table. It didn't take me by surprise, instead with all possible haste, I grabbed my punch that was refreshingly fun mango-strawberry lemonade then I splashed it all over her.

I hadn't realized what mess I entered myself into... not until I heard loud gasps, breathy voice and clicks of the camera filled the place.

I got horrified looks from everyone and my traitorous whole body started shaking. I couldn’t catch my breath and my heart was pounding out of my chest. Everything seemed spinning here and there. The worst thing was, I felt like I was going to throw up.

Breathe, Adeline.

I took few long, deep breaths.. I closed my eyes then pictured myself calm out of stormy weather. As I opened my eyes, a quick sharp smack with the palm of the hand swiftly landed on my cheek.

What the hell. I was stunned for about 60 seconds which I considered the longest minute of my wasted time. I felt like I could smash something or should I say, someone.

My heart rate and arterial tension increased. The left hemisphere of my brain became more stimulated. Adrenalin rushed through my body causing me to feel strong and ready to pull her blonde hair. I went from 'normal sexy gorgeous Adeline' to an 'Incredible Hulk' state.

My blood had started pumping to my head which explained why I got red all over my face. My breathing also became shallow as I entered to a "fight-or-flight" response.

My well toned body kicked into high gear, preparing to fend off my enemy. I reflexively positioned myself then I clenched my jaw tightly. My ability to process complex information decreased.

I had a very difficult time to actually understand, hear, or interpret what the other people were shouting, as they ploddingly encircled us both. Fuming red deprived my vision.

First attack was aggravatingly stolen from me, she ferociously charged me and reached around my head to grab my iconic pony tail. It left me totally flabbergasted just when she mockingly threw away my navy blue ponytail. Suddenly, I realized that she had one arm free as the other one was busy grabbing my hair while me, I had two. This was my advantage.

I held my attacker's filthy hand with both of my soft hands then firmly pressed it to my head. It limited her movement and hopefully also the pain. I used my elbow to cover my beautiful face to ward off future punches.

Then I hurriedly spun which caught her off guard then twisted her tiny wrist. She tried to forward roll and double leg takedown me but I urgently tossed the rest of my body weight to knock her off balance.. I made it successfully.

Honesty, Loyalty, Fairness, Punctuality.. I read loudly the last three which caught my attention.. Respect, Freedom and Responsibility.

"Respect for the basic dignity of self and others is essential to this community. Every person has the right to be treated with
respect, regardless of the many differences that distinguish individuals and groups. Respect involves showing regard for other's
well-being and safety as well as for their personal property, personal space, and for their living, learning, and working activities. In addition, members of this community also have a responsibility to respect the properties, and functions of the institution. No vandalism. Freedom and responsibility are two sides of the same coin. To uphold this kind of freedom of expression and action in the public area, each person has the responsibility to own his or her ideas and actions to express them in ways that do not limit or threaten others' freedom as well. This means that ideas and actions are neither anonymous nor isolated. By doing these openly and in a responsible manner enhances the learning and growth of all. On the other hand, to act or express one's ideas in an irresponsible manner impinges on other's rights and freedom to learn and grow."

"Students are expected to conduct themselves in a good way that respects the cooperative standards of our community and accords with the University’s educational mission. This includes obeying federal, state
and local laws besides the policies listed below. Read and kindly understand the number one" Mr. Goody uttered sternly and he pointed where was the number one on the list.

I never liked the way he treated me just when I stepped my foot on his nicely ordered office. As if I was a child who doesn't know how to read or behaves properly in front of a king. Oh Mister Goody-goody, you're annoying the goodness out of me!

"Number one: Disorderly conduct is any actual or attempted conduct that threatens the health or safety of oneself or others. This includes, but is not limited to, fighting, threats, assault, or harassment. Harassment consists of any unwanted conduct that is intended to cause, or could reasonably be expected to cause, an individual or group to feel intimidated, demeaned or abused, or to fear or have concern for their personal safety— where this conduct could reasonably be regarded as so grievous, persistent, or pervasive as to disrupt the living, learning, and working environment of the individual or group."

I continued to read all of the 50 policies. I felt the disturbing dryness of my throat.

"Not knowing these standards and
policies is not a defense or excuse. You have clearly violated the standards of our community. You may be able to accept responsibility for the policy violation without participating in a conduct hearing. It's not necessary. Based on the circumstances of the case, the judicial officer can either serves as the conduct officer or refers the matter to another conduct officer or body for resolution of the problem you have cause. If the respondent accepts the said responsibility, the respondent is required to notify the designated conduct officer to pursue this path within less than five days of their initial meeting. If the respondent unfortunately doesn't accept the responsibility, he or she will be referred to the Mrs. Moore's office to schedule an appointment to the Main office. In all matters, the judicial officer has full discretion to arrange a hearing when they determine that process may blah blah blah blah blah."

My ears had their own brain to shut him off. I couldn't bare it any longer! My butt was burning on the unfriendly seat. And I think that I hadn't understand what was the uninteresting things he'd been telling for hours.

His voice made me bored that I wanted to sleep. Before I could shut my eyes, he rudely gesture the door and told me I was dismissed.

Nice! What an amazing first day of college.. I silently prayed for the courage that I truly needed for next days, weeks, months and a year to this unwanted place I was trapped with an ugly hyaena or Sienna..

I distinctly doubt what was the difference between the two.