The Summer I'll Never Forget

Whats going on with me?

*Mackenzie's pov* 

after he left i felt awful what i said i didnt mean i did love him i really did its just everytime i really really love someone they seem to let me down. i now live with the fact that people always leave. i-i-i just didnt want to get hurt again. before he left, he left a guitar and a book to what seems like held the lyrics to his beautiful song. i decided to write  some lyrics myself.

So it goes without saying that I'm hooked on you

And by now I'm out of mind with this self abuse

I guess I should have looked out for myself

I guess that I could have found someone else

But I never met anyone

Who's loving made me so damn crazy

The lyrics just poured out of me i have no idea where it came from.

Everything little thing that you do

Every single word you say

Every time you're looking away

You got begging for more of you, more of you

I just let my emotions take over my hand and let the pen glide over the paper.

Every time I'm ready to go
Every time I think I'm back in control
Something gets my heart and my soul
And I'll be begging for more of you, more of you

I'm begging for more of you
I'm begging for more of you

I thought of all the things we have been through since i came back and all the things we went through as kids when i lived here.

You're a door I can't close when I'm running late

When I see you I know that I'm tempting fate

I guess that I should move on with my life

'Cause the state that I'm in is just not right

And I never met anyone

Who's loving made me so damn crazy

i would have no distractions i have blocked everything else out till i was finnished.

    Everything little thing that you do
Every single word you say
Every time you're looking away
You got begging for more of you, more of you

Every time I'm ready to go
Every time I think I'm back in control
Something gets my heart and my soul
And I'll be begging for more of you, more of you

Now, I don't know where to go
Should I put an end to this show?
But it's out of my hands 'cause I'm at your command
So what else can I do but get some more of you, oh

Everything little thing that you do
Every single word you say
Every time you're looking away
You got begging for more of you, more of you

Every time I'm ready to go
Every time I think I'm back in control
Something gets my heart and my soul
And I'll be begging for more of you, more of you

Every time I'm ready to go
Every time I think I'm back in control
Something gets my heart and my soul
And I'll be begging for more of you, more of you

Everything little thing that you do
Every single word you say
Every time you're looking away
You got begging for more of you, more of you

I dont know why i cant tell him how i feel, because trust me i feel the same way, but i also know how  he used to treat girls and i refuse to be one of them! even if i know that im in love with him. after writing in his book i hid it under the pillow as luke walked in.

"babe, im so glad your awake!" he said leaning in kissing my cheek.

"luke im sorry i really am."

"why are you sorry it wasnt your fault Thomas got you here."

hearing him say that pissed me off so much im not sure why but it made me want to hit him repetedly and cry of pain and sorrow.

"Luke i cant!.. no we cant... date!"

making a hurt exspression he nods "I understand as long as we can still be friends"

"of course!" 

a few days have passed  5 to be exact and still no visit from the one person i want it from the most. but they were finally releasing me today and I asked lane to make sure Thomas came over tonight.

before they had found me and killed Zach, Zach had told me something that i kept from them. Zach said there were more people that were apart of his plan. it wasnt over it probably would never be over.

Before my family came this morning I Grabed Thomas' book and wrote another song called dreamer 

I used to laugh aloud when you were around, now you're far away
Can't even hear me
With every other word you said to me as I fell asleep
Now they're fading whispers
I can't remember
I believed we were in this together
Giving everything for a chance at forever

when writing the song i was thinking how he would never want to talk to me.

I'm a dreamer
Who should've known better
But I thought you had a dream here too
I'm a dreamer who should've known better
Cuz now I have to live, I have to live
In this dream without you

With every other word you made me yours
With every wish you breathed
And every promise
Yeah, yeah
How did you read my mind,
Tell me every line that I longed to hear
Well you were so convincing
But you left me empty
I remember when we were both so naive
And now you're telling me that you never believed 

i wanted him to be with me forever friends or maybe more.

I'm a dreamer
Who should've known better
But I thought you had a dream here too
I'm a dreamer who should've known better
Cuz now I have to live, I have to live
In this dream without you

And then it all becomes too much
Couldn't you fight a little harder for us
You traded dreams for reality
And promises you couldn't keep
And nothing was the way it seemed

I'm a dreamer
Who should've known better
But I thought you had a dream here too, yeah
I'm a dreamer who should've known better
Cuz now I have to live, I have to live
In this dream without you
I should've known better
Oh, and I thought you had a dream here too, yeah
I'm a dreamer
Who should've known better
Cuz now I have to live, I have to live in this dream without you    
but after what i had said i doupt he ever wants to look at me agian.