The Summer I'll Never Forget

Cant Stop this Feeling

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*Mackenzie's pov*

The "car ride home with Lane was quiet and awkward all I could think about was Thomas. How much I wanted to share my feelings for him. I know he feels the same way I do I just can't stand the fact of getting hurt again.
"So uh Mack, Thomas is coming over tonight.. But I don't think it's best if we all hang out tonight so say what you need and let us be alright?" I nodded feeling kinda hurt by Lanes words. I felt a warm stream of water rush down my face whipping my tears song lyrics started spinning in my head I need to get home and write them to get them to stop replaying and spinning in my head, God im such a fool! When we finally got to the house before Lane could say anything about my sign of weakness I rushed inside and ran upstairs and locked myself in my room I let everything go and broke down into tears. I grabbed my own song journal and a pencil and spilled my guts out.

If only I could touch you
Feel you in my arms
If only I could hold you
Without sounding the alarm
It's only yesterday you left
But it seems like last year
Will I make it

Is it wrong of me to feel this way
You know my man would be betrayed
But I can't stop the way I feel when I see you
I'm such a fool

All I could think about was Thomas I just couldn't seem to shake him from my head

Is wrong of me to feel this way
You know my man would be betrayed
But I can't stop the way I feel when I see you
I'm such a fool for you
I'm such a fool for you

If only I could kiss you
Taste your skin my love
Instead I only miss you
Despite a heart within
It's only yesterday you left
But it seems like last year
Will I make it

I felt like this song was the best on I've written in a full on breakdown in a long time.

Is it wrong of me to feel this way
You know my man would be betrayed
But I can't stop the way I feel when I see you

I'm such a fool
Is it wrong of me to feel this way
You know my man would be betrayed
But I can't stop the way I feel when I see you
I'm such a fool for you
I'm such a fool for you

And I worried I might steal you kiss
When I'm broken you could be my fix
But I can't cover all these lies
No matter just how hard I tried

And I can't go another day
Without you I might fade away
You're everything that I don't say
Take my pain away

All I wanted was Thomas and I blew it. I couldn't take it back and I haven't regretted a mistake like this in a very very long time. God what am I doing to myself!

Is it wrong of me to feel this way
You know my man would be betrayed
But I can't stop the way I feel when I see you
I'm such a fool

And I don't know if I can wait
And hold my fear like such a fake
In my dreams I love the way you feel when I'm with you
I'm such a fool for you
I'm such a fool for you

I was finally finished with my song no one will probably ever hear it especially not Thomas he's the last person who can see it. He can't ever know I feel for him the way I do. What if my minds just playing tricks on me? I probably don't even like him. I may just like the idea of him? What ever the hell it is the feeling needs to stop pronto! Now was the time I had to figure out what I had to say to Thomas and Lane before the time limit is up to be kicked out of the room. Thinking and thinking finally gave me a brilliant idea that might just work. I changed into less lazy hospital clothes into something a little more reveling still pjs but whatever a 5sos shirt and short fuzzy shorts with matching fuzzy socks. I put my thick wavy hair in a side braid and grabbed Thomas' song book remembering that I wrote songs in there about how I felt I panicked and ripped them out as fast as I could and slid them in my pillow case. I then calmed myself down and made my way downstairs but froze in my place when I felt a hand on my waist. My breath hitches praying to God it was Thomas and not just some dream. I turn around to see the one and only THOMAS FREAKING JACOBS! "Sup Jacobs?" Sup Jacobs really that's the best you can do you stupid ass! "Ha sup Mack... So your brother said you had something to tell us." Did I mention he was shirtless Cuz um he totally was.. And boy oh boy did i want to jump his bones right then and there oh lord sweet baby Jesus please have mercy on my little week heart! "Mack you okay" Thomas said waving his hands in front of my face pulling me away from my thoughts.

"Oh yah yah I'm cool Jacobs you know just a bit distracted but yea I have something to tell you guys and it's kinda important.."
"Distracted by what babe" he asked with a wink oh god he was so pissed at be earlier that week what happened? is he just a flirt all together with everyone?
"Nothing important anyway get Lane and meet me in the kitchen asap!"
He made his way up stairs to get Lane and I tried to pull myself together the best I could and boy was it hard.