TOTGA • chae hyungwon

Epilouge

It's been a week and a half since you bid your last goodbye to the love of your life.

"Y/N, he wanted me to give this to you before he died," Her mother gave you a flash drive. "Open the file when you're ready."

"Thank you." You bowed as she tapped your shoulder before she left.

You don't know if you're ready to open it, but curiosity flowed into your mind. You opened your laptop and put on the flash drive, there's only one folder.

For the love of my life, Y/N <3

As soon as you read the file name, your tears started falling. He is the sweetest. I miss him so much. You clicked the file and you saw only one video. You're hesitant at first but you finally played it.

"Oh God..." You started to cry so hard when he smiled at the very beginning of the video. That smile. Oh how you miss it.

"Hi, Y/N!" He was smiling for the first ten seconds of the video. It's noticeable that he lost weight, his pinkish thick lips are already pale, and he looks really sick. It hurts you to see him like that.

"Do you miss me? If you're gonna ask me, I miss you a lot. Sorry if by the time you're watching this, I'm already gone. Y/N, you know how important you are to me, right? I want to explain to you. This is why I'm recording this video. You see, I can't send you any more letters.... because I can't write anymore. I can barely use my hands. I feel so useless.. I'm so weak..." Hyungwon was looking down while saying those. "I'm sorry, Y/N. I'm sorry if I didn't tell you about my condition. I really don't want you to worry about me, I wanted to fight, I want to show you I'm strong, I know I am, but my body betrayed me. I'm sorry. The words I've written in the letters, I mean all of those... every single part, every single word... I mean it, Y/N."

"I'm sorry if I can't see you with the beautiful white gown anymore. If I can't be the one who will be waiting for you on the aisle. God knows how much I wanted to be the only man for you, but I am sorry." Hyungwon's tears started falling as he smiled weakly. "I'm sorry if we lost so much time. Y/N, I know you so well. I know that you are blaming yourself for all the lost times, but please don't. It's never your fault. I understand you. You were scared, right? I understand. What's important now is that I know, deep in my heart, that you loved me too. Not to be boastful, but it's obvious, Y/N." He chuckled.

"Your actions... the way you smile at me, the you look at me... and your eyes... they can't lie. They won't lie. I can see it. And I think it's already enough for me. Thank you so much, Y/N. Thank you for loving me."

"Thank you for everything you've done for me, for every laugh we shared, for being the reason why I wanted to fight, for entering my world. Thank you for being the best part of it. Thank you so much. Please take care of yourself, okay? Don't get too sick! I want the best for you."

"Y/N, this is not a goodbye. I'll see you again. I promise. In another life, we'll be together. I promise you that. I love you so much and thank you for everything." Hyungwon kissed the lens of the camera and smiled. He was still crying as he stopped the video.

"Thank you so much, Hyungwon. Let's meet again."