This is just me being me

Something I want

Damn love I know we hate it but have a strange fascination with it. Most of us want it but very few people get it. Love isn't something that is just easy. Love could be something you work for something you strive for but never reach the end you never meet that goal. Love could be that last bit of ice cream in a bowl that you can't quite get with you're spoon so you have to slurp it. Love could really be anything you want it to be. Well for me this is sorta what I want I'm putting this out in the universe so hopefully they will return the guy that I'm describing here. Well for me I would want a guy that isn't necessarily perfect he doesn't need his hair always gelled or his coat buttoned up to the very top or even be able to match his outfit completely. Something I do want is for all of his little quirks and his tiny mannerisms that he does when he thinks no one is watching to be something I think about when I'm sad. I want the way he smiles to make the sun appear out of nowhere. I want his laugh to always make me giggle or make me feel like I'm not alone in this world and that we are taking it together head on. I want him to be kind and definitely not to kind because I really don't like that but kind to where he opens doors for me and such and then we laugh about how corny it was. I want us to be best friends and be able to hang out like such and not necessarily have to have sex. I want him to be confident but not egotistical and cocky but know that he is an amazing man that can do amazing things. I want him to be the rock to my peice of paper that is going to fly into the wind at any moment.I want him to be able to make my family love him as much as I do. I want him to make my mom bring me in the other room and say "He's a keeper" and for me to make some dumb goalie reference. I want him to just be him and not let this crazy fucked up world ruin him. Honestly though out of what seems like a whole bunch of "rules" I just want him to be able to love me for me and to be able to look at my weird personality and crazy quirks and do them with me or tell the guy or girl next to him that "That's my lady" as he is laughing. Is that to much to ask most likely yes. 🤣