A Broken Heart

chapter two:life in hospital

Being in this hospital is so boring there I barely of anything to do. I just ran out of white paper to draw on and I have already a side of my room done with drawings I've done.

I can't do much because I can't make it where I could have any negative effects on my heart and doing too much or so could do bad for it.
I hate this life but there isn't much I can do about it can I? Ik i could try but what's the point in anything knowing there is nothing but bad out in the real life.

I texted Chris telling him I couldn't cause I have swimming practice and then i would have to do my chores and by the time I would be done it would be too late and I also have to watch my baby sister and I have no time to spare and then I said sorry.
Luckily he fell for it and said it was okay maybe another day. Another day to lie to him.
Not everything is a lie my feeling aren't but still.

The nurse comes in gives my my breakfast which is; a peach,milk,toast,and cereal.
But before I eat I have to take my medicine and then blood pressure again. When I wake up they do a blood test then after meds/medicine and then if we do a sport or anything like that.

There are other kids in here but none are my age they are all 4 to 9 years old too young.
I see kids die all the time.

Finally the one thing I can do,I get to go out and go out and work and earn money for stuff I want.
I work for orange julius.

It is fun to do. Especially on the weekend. Chris knows I work today.
I try not to be specific and such so I dont meet him while I'm working.

He has came here a couple times I luckily have a way , i talk my coworker to serve him and such.
My coworker knows what is going on.
I had to tell him why and he agreed to keep my secret and he is a good person to have by ur side but I don't hangout much with him we aren't considered friends more like alys at work and we have each other backs but still.
Today he isn't working,of course Chris had to come today he always come I have nobody else to cover me so I try to make it where he won't notice me at all.
But all I have is this damn hat it was going to eventually happen but I was just hoping he told me he wasnt going here but he did. Maybe he just changed his mind last second.
Maybe he saw me idk.
There is no point in trying to hide,he noticed me there was a silence.
I broke it by what I had to ask to every customer not trying to get in trouble
"Um....would u like me to take ur order"i said ackwardly
"Yeah" his friend says hopefully just a friend
"We would like a mixed berry smoothie with wheat in it and a wild berry and that's it"his friend ordered
"Okay that will be 8 dollars and 57 cents"i said
Chris pays and they grab their recite and go to a table I have to serve it and make it.
I can tell Chris keeps looking at me.
I do the order, I remember Chris telling me here they add too much wheat to his smoothie I make it perfectly as it is suppose to i always measure things out.
I finally get them with my gloves I'm required to wear and go over and serve their drink and say"here is ur mixed berry with wheat and wild berry smoothies,enjoy"i say
"Hey wait,Chris was just talking about u I knew there was something going on,ur his online friend he is obsessed with"he says while Chris looks embarrassed
"Yeah I guess so"i say being ackward like earlier idk
"Why dont u join us?"he asks
"Um I have to get back to work,sorry"i say going back to work like I said
Chris didn't even speak maybe he is disappointed that i work here or maybe I'm not what he fully expected or something.
Idk I go In the back to collect my thoughts and more and all I could think about him not wanting me anymore or if i should of just call out today. Idk
Ugh why am I like this???
Go go back and get back.to work before i get into trouble
I see this women being rude to everyone so I step in of course.
She isn't satisfied by her work on her smoothie and has requested 3 times to have it redone correctly. This lady come in every week and causes a racket.
I take the cup and see that it is an strawberry with wheat in it
I do the correct measurements and add a bit of extra strawberry and that shuts her up.
I give it to her and wish he a good day. I'm not the person to argue or anything. I just get things done.
She finally leaves the place Chris and his friend of course watched the whole thing and his friend recorded it and my actions it is just whatever. I just hope nobody identifies me.
Most unlikely cause I look a lot different from when I was 14 and such.
Some people applaud me I just get back to work,it happens all the time I'm just use to it.
Ik i should stand up like the others but still.
Finally after an hour and a half of constant work i get a break.
This job is the only normal thing I can do.
I make my own smoothie,employees get 1 free smoothie the day they work.
I made a mixed smoothie of left overs and mixed it with wheat in it.
I sit at my own table.
Chris's friend came over while Chris is in the restroom.
"Sorry about Chris,he is just in shocked from meeting u here and he is just going through his sister being in the hospital that is 20 minute walk from here."he says
"Okay I'm sorry to hear that is going on with him,I never meant for him and I to meet like this but eventually he was going to meet me here"i say
"So why do u work here,and why did u did what u did with that lady most people would of just went off on her?"he asks
"I'm saving up for something,and I like this job as well,and she does this every week there is no point in retaliating,just do the measurements add extra fruit she wants and that is it"i say
"Oh okay,in Adam, I'm Chris's cousin"he says
"I'm Ethan, I'm Chris's online friend ig"i say he cracks up
"Ur funny"adam says
"I gtg I have two more hours before closing up then I get to go back home and relax,tell him I hope his sister gets better"i say then get back to work
2 hours later
I'm closing up when all of the sudden someone taps on my shoulder I jumped
"Hey it's just me chris"chris says
"Hey"i say
"Wanna go on to the hospital with me and meet my sister,I really want someone to go with me because I hate going alone and plus it gives us time to talk and actually hangout"he says nervously
"Yeah I'd like that"i say
"So u work here"he says
"Yeah sorry I should of told u"i say
"When do u work?"he asks
"Um...I work on weekends and on wednesdays" i say
"I'm there all the time especially on the weekends why havent I seen u sooner or did u just started working or something?"he asks
We are walking to the hospital while talking
"I've been working here for a little over a month,and u didn't see me cause I was hiding sorry"i say
"Why?"he asks
"I didn't want us to meet like that ackwardly and while i was working and such"i say
"Oh okay I understand"he says
"If u dont mind me asking why is ur sister in the hospital?"I asked
"She has a brain tumor,she's had it for a long time now but tomorrow she is going into surgery and I want to be there when she is in the surgery and when she gets out hopefully"he says worried
"I'm sorry to hear that and the hospital here is amazing"i say
"Is ur grandma there I noticed the color is the same?"he asks
"Yeah..." I said looking down
"Did it not go well?"he asks concern
"No i lied my grandma died years ago..."I say I start to cry

It is the truth I want to tell him I truly do and I have to before everything gets out of hands.
"I'm sorry I understand why u lied I would of too "he says
"my mom died 2 years ago from a car crash and her heart failed,my dad left when I was only 3 years old,my sister was kidnapped and murdered please forgive me for lying to u about them,I thought It would be easier"i say
"I understand I knew something wasn't right I just didn't know what,so who are u living with" he asks
"Actually there's more"i say...there was a pause he just looked at me"i obviously lied about what I did on birthday,and to answer ur question I live in the hospital we are going to,"I say I wanted his reply before telling him that I'm sick
"Okay obviously that makes sense but why do u live in the hospital"he asks
"Can It wait we are here,I'll tell u later"i say still crying
We are on the elevator going up
"Ethan,, so u know I do forgive u if I were in ur shoes I would of to had lied about everything we only have known each other for almost 2 months,and u telling me the truth tells me more about who u are and dont worry it is good,I forgive u"he says
That set off a big relief in my mind and more
We go and see his sister she is 3 years old
We stay and visit she is sweet and nice I got to see more of how Chris is Im still in shocked of him forgiving me and everything so fast and easily.

Visiting hours for her is over. The nurse looks at me and says" Ethan ur still allowed visitors and u gotta get ur dinner and meds and blood pressure done"she says
Chris looks at me I'm kinda embarrassed and very sorry expression on my face

"Is it okay if I stay and talk more to u and stay and visit u so we could continue to talk?"he asks
"Yeah of course"i say
We walk to my room
He goes in and sees my drawings bed and how i make it look like a bedroom where it is unnoticeable on the video chat.
Right when we sit on my bed one of the nurse comes in with my meds,food and blood pressure machine
"Should I step out or..?"Chris asks
"No u can stay if u like,it doesnt bother me"i say I take my meds and do the blood pressure machine thing of course she tell me I need to relax..
Which just means my blood pressure is high
She leave my food on the counter and leaves the room and closes the door,there aren't any cameras in the room weirdly it is to respect people's privacy
"Do u mind me asking why ur in the hospital?"he asks
I take a minute to reply I look down for a second
"I have heart cancer"i answered I start to cry again but less obvious
"That sucks,but I'm here for u"he says
I look up to him and I give him a big passionate hug
He doesn't know how much that meant to me and how scared of him to find out the truth and more.
I'm so tiny compared to him
I'm underweight and I have a high matassium(sorry don't know how to spell that if I get it wrong just know I tried)not enough to not have sicknesses like this but meh.

"So what do u do in here?"he asks
"Watch tv,draw,write,do my online schooling,text or talk to u deal with the treatments and such,rn they are just monitoring me and my heart and such"i say
"Okay"he says
"If u like u can stay the night I have night sleepover visitation privileges dont know what it is called or so,but u can stay the night if u like i can blow the air mattress up"i say
"Yeah that would be nice I can get to know u more and actually hangout with u in person now and more"he says.
I finished eating my soup and such then We played card games,told embarrassing stories and watch a movie eventually we fell asleep
Goodnight.

Sorry this is a long chapter I got really into it and just now realize how long it is but thank u for reading and I hope u guys liked this story so far I was going to continue it with Chris not knowing and more but I thought of knew story plot and beyond thank u all. Love chilynn speed