Life with Evans

I couldn't be happier

At lunch the cameras were off. There were no press and, theoretically, Evans and I could do as we pleased. But as soon as I got away from the press, I dragged Marie off and had a mini panic.

"What the fuck am I doing?" I asked as I crouched on the floor.

"I've no idea darling. But you look a little odd" she sarcastically replied.

"No I don't mean it ... like... with Evans. What the actual fuck? How did we think we could keep it a secret? Like we'll get in shit from the studio, and then there's the questions, and the press and photos and we won't be able to just go out ..."

"Alice, darling. Stop a second and take a breath." Marie slowed my breathing to be in time with hers as she held my hand and crouched with me. "Everything's going to be fine. If you want press to know we can put out a statement, and then put a clause for no questions about it. If you don't then you just carry on as you are. Have you spoke to Chris?"

"Not yet"

"Then perhaps that's a place to start. Do you want me to get him?" She gestured for the door.

"No. I'll, I'll, talk to him later. I'm fine." I took a deep breath. "You're right. I'm just being silly. I'm fine" I stood and smoothed down the front of my shirt. "I'm fine." I looked her in the eye with a fake smile and headed out to fine the rest of the cast.

As soon as I walked in the room, Evans spotted something wasn't right. Tom had caught my eye too and they were both looking at me with concern. Tom was the first to come over and ask if I was ok.

"Wanna talk about it?" He asked stood by my side and handing me a drink.

"Not really. Thank you though." I smiled as best as I could. We looked over at Chris who's head was tilted slightly as he looked my way. His blue eyes worried.

"Wanna talk to him about it?" Tom asked again.

"I really don't fucking know" I sighed. And took a big sip of the wine Tom had handed me, as he put his arm around me and gave me a squeeze before leaving me to it. Evans wasn't far behind him though.

"You ok?" He asked, his hand in the small of my back. His body comfortingly close.

"Yeah. Fine" I tried my best to fake a good smile

"Bull shit!" He looked sternly back at me. "Can I do anything?"

"I don't think so. Maybe we can talk about things later" I didn't know how to approach it.

"What things?" He looked worried "I mean Of course we can talk. When ever you want. Just, should I be worried?"

"No. Not like that" I stroked his cheek. He was too bloody cute. "Just..." I took his hand and we left the room to find somewhere quiet. Better to get it all out now, without over thinking any more than I already had. "I've really enjoyed not having press everywhere you know?"

"I do know" he smiled and wrapped his arms around my waist. We'd hidden in the bathroom, across from the room where lunch was out. "I've very much enjoyed it too"

"But I'm now constantly on edge that we're gonna do something, or say something that's gonna give us away and..."

"Why are you worried about that?" He stopped my rambling.

"I just... I didn't know what you wanted to do or say? And I didn't want all of the questions during the junket to be all about that, and I want to be able to go out and have dinner without cameras, and..."

"Hey, come here" he pulled me in for a hug "right. We're very lucky that we have the lives we do, press are an unfortunate adage to an otherwise, pretty fucking cool life. And believe me, I totally get your worries about the questions. I literally have a panic attack before most of these things, and that was when my personal life wasn't interesting in the slightest." He took a thoughtful breath. "Have you spoken to anyone in media? Like, see what they can do to minimise any fuss if we want to stop hiding about"

"Yeah, Marie has a plan"

"Ok well I'll talk to my guys then if you'd like. Look, it's shit that we have to think about this, but I'm super fucking happy Alice. I'm massively in love and for the first time in my career I wouldn't mind telling the world that" I must have taken a sharp breath "I won't. I might have to tell my Ma and sisters though" he joked. "What d'ya think?"

"I think I'd like for you to tell them" I smiled up at him and he gave me a quick kiss.

"Ok so we have a plan then. Right, let's get out of here without anyone seeing - before rumours of us fucking the the bathroom start. If things like that are going around, I want to actually have a story to back them up" he squeezed my ass and we made a quick exit back to lunch.

We spent the afternoon planning with different media teams to try and minimise any fuss. We just stopped holding back so much, we held hands a little, and flirted quite a lot. It wouldn't be long before things were out. That night I added a picture of the two of us chilling out to my instagram and that was about all we needed. Word was out, and I couldn't be happier.