So.. it's been happening. The feeling of seeing something already. Most people would say, "Oh, don't worry. You probably just saw it before." Smile and continue the conversation to some other topic.
For a while, I actually believed them. God I wanted to believe them.
This is how this situation works for me. I will have a stop in time in my head where some random image comes up in my head. For the most part it is short and simple. Like 1 frame out of a 60fps video most people would not even notice. Usually its about something I will see in the future, so its simple. This happens without warning and most times I try to forget it. I was never one who craved to know everything.
Afterwards, I go on with my day. Simple as that.
Now, when the time comes where I remember the deja vu scenario is when it happens again. Just like the image, it comes out of nowhere. I have seen it in the videos I watch, the books, manga, my worklife, my school life. This is everywhere. I can't just ignore it anymore. Not when its engrained into my life like this.
Now, a reader comes along and does not believe what I have said here. That is fine, believe what you want. I am not trying to make you believe. I am making a stance and accepting apart of me that was never really accepted.
The truth is, I wish I could sit there blissfully drinking my caramel coloured tea and soaking in the sun in my little nook of a kitchen. I can't, it happens too often and too stupidly correct. It scares the shit out of me that I can see things that normal people can't. Well... I will calm down a little.
Afterall, Its not like anyone will read this anytime soon. At least not until 2024 :)
