constellation

9

Luna—
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i patiently wait outside of the classroom, the clock showing they are just about to get out. i hum and tap my feet to pass the time. the bell rings loudly and the door opens, various students exiting and then him. i smile and he smiles right back at me. his new friend Jackson ( hehe) smirking and heading over to me with Jimin.

" why hello there beautiful" Jimin says and hugs me gently. i smile and try to hold my tears in, he furrows his brows and Jackson bows " you must be the famous astronomy girl he won't shut up about" and i bow back " you must be that idol guy" and he laughs " in the flesh"

Jimin notices something is off and says " hey man, i'll hang later, i have to go study with Luna" and he nods " alright man, nice to meet you luna" and i wave. Jimin takes my hand and we walk outside, in the comfortable silence. i nervously ask " c-can you do me a favor?" and he nods " could you give me a ride to.... the hospital?" and he gulps " are you okay? you are following the diet?" and i nod " yes, i look healthy don't i?"

he nods and then gasps " TELL ME I GOT YOU PREGNANT.." and i shake my head " no you didn't. it's just some testing that your dad wants to do okay" and he nods calmly. then lifts my shirt up and checks it out, poking it to make sure nothing is growing inside. i glare at him " just checking" he says and pulls it back down and walks us to his car.

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i sit patiently, as they run various tests on me like blood work, pee sample, pelvic exam, all of the fun stuff. " okay i'll call when i have the results, and please take these and use them Luna." his dad says and hands me a small box of condoms " o-oh uhm.. he has some" and he makes me take them anyways. knowing full and well he ran out last week.

i hide them in my backpack and walk out of the room, seeing jimin sitting there half asleep. " Chim" i say and he perks right up " let's go" i say and he gets up but a voice says " Jimin. a word please" and i feel my guts churn. they walk away but i still eavesdrop. " really Jimin?" he says and i frown " what?" he asks and his dad sternly says " we talked about being sexual. i know you and i didn't even have to exam her to know you two have been..."

i hear Jimin inhale " dad, we've only done it twice. both times were protected, i'm not a child i know what i'm doing" and his dad sighs " when she gets pregnant, what will you do?" and Jimin says " find a job, and support our family the best i can. i will get a home for us, and make damn sure she and the baby are happy." and his dad sighs " it's not that easy Jimin.."

i hear jimin scoff " what's that supposed to mean? do you think i'm not capable of being a father?" and he backtracks " Jimin that's not what i meant, supporting a family is hard... and i'm not a baby doctor but i know at her age and body size it would be hard on her to carry and birth a baby" and Jimin says blatantly before walking away " looks like i'll have to get her healthy enough first"

he grabs my hand and we walk out... well he did, and dragged me along. i show him down as my head starts to spin " are you okay?" he asks and i nod " yeah... can i stay at your place? Mia and Jin are at mine and i really don't want to hear them bang each other's brains out" and he nods " yeah. i think you have some clothes over too"

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i step out of the shower and throw on my leggings and one of his shirts. i open the door and walk out, seeing Jimin and Jungkook playing games and singing along to some music. i smile and the game ends with a groan from Jimin and an evil laugh from jungkook.

he looks at me " you feeling okay?" he asks and i gulp and my blood runs cold suddenly. my lungs tighten and my head feels like it might explode. " noona? noona?! CALL 911!!" Jungkook says and Jimin stands up and runs to me. my legs give out and i fall to the floor, my lungs rejecting any air that tries to go in. " JUNGKOOK HURRY SHE CANT BREATHE!" he yells and picks me up and gets me into a safe position.

i struggle and grip at his arms, tears clouding my vision. next i know i'm inside ambulance, the atmosphere is shaky and i still cant breathe. " come on baby, please be okay..." i hear and i hold my weak hand up. Jimin takes it and kisses it softly, and i focus on his face. tears falling down like crazy from his cheeks and worry spread all over.

i look over to Jungkook who's next to him, his cheeks stained with tears as well. must be traumatic seeing someone beg for air and practically suffocate for no reason. he touches my lower leg, and sniffles " n-noona... please don't go" and jimin holds his hand. i cry and then the ambulance stops. they wheel me out and jimin follows with jungkook.

we cross the threshold and doctors hold Jimin and Jungkook back. i stop them and manage to croak out " c-c-chim" and the doctors let him walk up " i have to go with her, please let me go with her" he cries and they refuse. i reach my hand up, touching his cheek and wiping the tears away. he understands that no matter what, i'm fighting whatever this is.

he nods just to my touch, knowing what i mean. he kisses my hand and says just as they begin to wheel me back again. past the part he can't go across " i love you Luna!" and i cry and smile. wanting to scream it back at him, but i cant.. i just look at him for the last few seconds. he smiles, knowing i want to say it back. then it's dark.....

i love you too park jimin.
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