Returning home

Chapter 13 - Pain and confusion

Angie's POV:

- Angie... Tell me the truth... Do you still have feelings for me?

He just asked me that and I froze. What does he think I'm gonna say?? He's already engaged to Priscilla! What am I supposed to say in a situation like this?!

- G-German... - I stuttered.

- I need an answer... - he said while looking deeply into my eyes - I need a real answer... Do you still have feelings for me or... or you have already moved on... with Nicholas?

He looks so sad... But doesn't he love Priscilla??

- German, this is... this is not good... You're getting married in a month... We can't just do this again... You know how it ended the last time too...

German looked at me for a minute before pulling me closer and kissed me on the lips.

His touch... his kisses... I love them... but it's not good... it's just not.... We're gonna end up hurting each other again...

But I can't pull away... I kissed him back passionately.

When we broke apart...

- I'm sorry, Angie... I had to do it... - he sighed painfully - I won't do this again, just please... don't leave us again...

- German...

I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved this kiss but I just couldn't.

- Can we still be friends?

Friends... yeah...

- Of course... - I muttered as I hugged him gently, placing my head on his shoulder.

German's POV:

I kissed her and she kissed me back... But she didn't say a word... Maybe she doesn't love me anymore.

I should just focus on the wedding. Yes... this is what I have to do and I won't feel like I still love her because she obviously doesn't love me...

After this long and awkward moment we continued talking and I felt so good the whole time. I didn't want this night to end but it had to.

- Thank you for the night... - Angie smiled and she was about to leave when I pulled her back.

- Wait, let me take you home! It's too late for you to be on the streets alone! - I said.

- Okay... Okay, thank you - she nodded with a smile.

- Then let's go!

I took her home, I said my goodbye to her and went back home, but I couldn't think about anything else, but that what happened tonight.

She didn't say she loves me... but she kissed me back. Her kiss... was so good and passionate that it couldn't be just acted... Could it?

I don't know what to do anymore and this hurts so bad.

Angie's POV:

I stepped inside my house... well, actually Nicholas's house, closed the door behind me and began to cry. Luckly no one's home so no one else will hear or see me crying.

I was crying for the last hour when I get a phone call from Nicholas so I got myself together and took the phone.

- Hello, beautiful - he said - How are you doing?

- Pretty good... - I said - How about you? When will you come home?

- Tomorrow!

- I'm glad to hear that!

. I miss you too much, baby...

- I miss you too, Nicholas...

I couldn't help but smile as he said that. I love him... I don't love German! Just memories came back and that caused me to feel confused! I'm sure of it! And that weird dream....

Moving on is the best decision here right now...

The next morning I went to meet Pablo when I saw I guy in the park that looked so much like Nicholas.

 No, that's probably not him... He said he's gonna come home around afternoon and it's 9 in the morning.

Plus, this guy is with a woman too. That's definitely not him.

When I arrived to the Studio Vilu greeted me first.

- Angie!!

- Morning, Vilu - I smiled at her.

- How was the last night??

- Well... Nothing interesting - I replied - It was lovely, that's all....

- That's all?

I hesitated for a moment before answering to her.

- Yes... Now let's go in! - I said, forcing a smile on my face.

Vilu looked at me concerned then just sighed and we went in.

I feel bad for lying to her again, but I have no choice... She can't know about that kiss... about what her dad said... even though it happened twice before... this is just him being confused again... Besides I have a boyfriend too... I just can't think about him on that way... No...

- Angie... Angie!

I snapped out of my thoughts by hearing Gregorio shouting my name.

- W-What is it...? - I murmurred.

- Angie... are you okay? - he asked.

- Yeah... Yeah... I'm totally fine...

- If you say so... - he said then tapped both of my shoulders and looked into my eyes - But you know, you can tell me if there is something wrong... I'm here to listen... And maybe help too...

- No... You can't help... - I sighed while looking down the floor - But...

- But...?

- But... I could use a hug...

He didn't ask anything more, just pulled me into his arms and hugged me and I also didn't say anything, just hugged him back quietly.

I didn't want to think about what German said to me. Even though I think I still love him but between us there only should be friendship... He has Priscilla and I have Nicholas and even if this wouldn't be true we could never be together... because something or someone's always stands between us....

German's POV:

Angie didn't say anything, but I saw something in her eyes. Pain... sadness... confusion... Everything in short.

I felt like she wanted to say something but she didn't...

I feel so confused... I don't know what to do or what to think. She loves me? She doesn't? If someone could help me I'd be really happy.... but I can't ask for help... Not anymore.

I'm a moron and I hate myself for that....