i laid in bed, my eyes red from staying up 3 days in a row. the dark spots under my eyes were only getting darker, and my friends were only getting more worried.
every second of the day it felt as if there a bigger lump in my throat. billie was on tour, doing god knows what, promising me she loves me every night at exactly 11pm.
each day went by so quickly, leaving me behind. i stopped eating, stopped looking in the mirror when i brushed my teeth, stopped doing regular things that i use to describe as 'stuff i couldnt survive the day without.'
each day a fan caught billie touching some girl they would tag me in it. times like this i wish i was famous so i wouldnt have time to see them, but i did have time. i saw every video. videos where billie would touch a girl's ass, her hand would graze over their boobs slightly.
she was ruining me slowly. days passed and the whole fandom was talking about it. billie tried calling me several times a day. i couldnt stand the sound of her voice though.
how do i move on from someone that i thought was my soulmate?
SO
I WAS THINking about making this like a short little book but idrk so hehe thoughts ?
yall its published lol called grand piano
