I Will Not leave in silence

Avoiding mirrors

There is darkness all over the place, silence is making me nervous. My mind is slowly processing all the things around me.

The ceiling has different and a way unique patterns. I could feel something damp underneathe me as I glanced the sheets were white but there was a different colour as if printed on it , they were bloody damp sheets and it was my blood

What happened here?? What happened here??

I moved a little and suddenly I felt like my whole body was bleeding again. Pain was written all over my face.I rushed towards the restroom by wrapping a sheet around my body avoiding all the mirrors around me.

Get out of here , get out of here...get out and leave all the evidence of what happened here..these were the only voices in my head.

I found my clothes on the floor .I changed instantly . The door was half open I went out of the hotel as I was walking on the road side small droplets of rain were falling on my skin and my bruises and scars became clear

I walked and walked until my legs were burning. I looked around and thought were should I go? I dont need any familar faces around me right now.I was scared but I did not want to tell anyone first I need to accept for myself .

I had no other option but to go home.I went straight to my bedroom, ignoring my maa asking me where did I spent the entire night. It was quite in there everything was perfect on its place.

I went to the bathroom and took a shower . I kept on washing myself, I kept on scrubing, scrubing and scrubing until my body became red. I was trying to remove all the scars but instead they became more prominent . I couldn't close my eyes while taking shower I felt too scared. I sat on the floor for sometime. Afterwards, started rubbing myself again I wanted to erase the memory of him touching me where ever his hands had gone I wanted to clean that part.

I stepped out of the bathroom but I did not feel pure.

I changed into my night pajamas and a wore a black shirt. I tucked myself in my bed and stared at the darkness of my room and felt the silence. Now I need to think..what happened..? I am going to avoid it thats it even if something happened it doesnt matter.It won't change anything right? I can ignore it. I will go to school tomorrow and I will be fine.

For now my task was to sleep and to somehow just kill this night.I wonder what my parents must have thought about my behaviour. However, I assume they must have decided to give me some space and then they will bombard me with their questions.

Minutes streached into hours it was a long night. I wasn't able to sleep no matter what. The sun came up I changed into school uniform usually I wear only skirt but today I wore black leggings along with it.

I went to school as I walked inside I couldn't see any familiar faces I stopped for a minute and observed everyone moving around me but I was stuck at the exact location. Someone knocked into me and my books fell on the ground I started to pick them up. I stared at the boy infront of me.