I Never Thought

Chapter 1

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"Btches, pupuntahan ko na yung target ko ha? Wish me luck." Pagkasabi ni Leah, she just left us hanging. Lagi kasi syang gumagawa ng scene so inisip ko na sundan sya to watch after her. Lagi kasi syang napapaaway.

"Long island tea for a hot DJ." She said then flashed her famous smile. I giggled, I think I'm going to enjoy the movie.

"Thanks?" 

"Hey babe don't stare at me like that, I don't think there's something wrong about giving you a drink, right darling?" Nakakatuwa kasi she's being the way she is. Hindi mo naman kasi masisisi sakanya kung bakit ganyan sya ngayon. Habang tinitignan ko sila nagulat ako nang biglang halikan ni Leah yung DJ. I'm used to her like that, but what she's doing was a french kiss. 

"You've been hitting on me since -- I think last week?" This lucky guy, sana hindi nalang sya nagsalita because I know Leah so well, she's into British accent at alam kong malakas tama nya sa ganun.

"I'm not hitting on you." She went closer pa, grabe Leah. "Do you wear contacts?" Then she traced his jawline, his eyes, and he's nose.

"Are you seducing me?"

"No, I'm not. I'm just being friendly," I saw that DJ bit his lower lips. Wow, Leah. Gumagana pa din pala yang appeal mo. "On the second thought, yes, I'm seducing you." and they do french kiss again.

"You, whore!" May biglang sumigaw na witch, oh, I mean na girl at sinabunutan si Leah. I know she won't go down without a fight, at tama nga ako. I saw her pulled that girl's hair and she even slapped her. Hard.

"What is your problem?" She calmly said. I know she can handle things like this kaya mamaya ko na sya lalapitan.

"You, slut! How dare you kiss MY fiancé?" Ooh. Kaya pala hindi pinapansin si Leah kasi may fiancé na. But I know she hates happy couples because they will separate ways eventually. Forever is a misconcept.

"What? Fiancé? How can you be his fiancé well in fact he just asked me to be his girl a while ago?" I think she's testing their relationship. Kung mahal nya yung lalaki, hindi sya maniniwala agad sa sinabi ng kaibigan ko. I believe that relationship needs trust in order to survive.

"You're lying! You whore, slut, btch, relationship wrecker! Hindi ka ba masaya sa buhay mo kaya nangengealam ka ng buhay ng iba? Ano? Iniwan ka ba ng boyfriend mo kaya gusto mo gumanti sa iba?" She went too far. That's it. Tumayo ako papunta kay Leah na namumula na sa sobrang galit. She slapped her so hard that will surely leave mark on her skin and she even pulled her hair that all she can do is to shout.

"Leah, stop it. And miss, ano bang problema mo?" I faced the girl. I pity her. Hindi manlang sya pinagtanggol ng "fiancé" nya. If I were her, I would think twice kung papakasalan ko ba sya.

"Are you seriously asking me that?" she laughed. She's mental, I think.

"Wrong answer. Hey, you better go with that fiancé of yours na hindi ka manlang pinagtanggol kung ayaw mong kasuhan kita ng assault that lead to grave physical injury." I calmly said. I don't know kung may ganun bang law pero I think gumana naman because she dragged her fiancé going outside. Tss, kawawa naman.

"Good timing, KD. Gusto ko na din kasi umalis dun its just that, that girl went too far. Bruha sya!" Then I laugh, real hard. Naman kasi, yung itsura nya parang gusto nyang balikan yung babae. But I also laughed to lighten up the mood. Good idea naman kasi she joined me laughing.

"Anyway Krish, we have a new friend at the clique pala. He's so damn hot but we thought na ipaubaya nalang sya sayo. I think he's coming tonight."

"I don't think that's a good idea. I haven't thought of having another one piece of shit to break me. Boys will be boys, Leah. Ayoko nang magpaka-baliw sa taong alam ko naman na iiwan din ako sa huli." A tear fell from my eye. I start reminiscing the scenario happened a year ago nung nagbreak kami ng stupid kong ex. He didn't even bother to give me explanation, to give me peace of mind. It feels like no one is going to accept me for who I am. 

I saw a handkerchief sa harap ko. I didn't bother to look sa mukha nung nagbigay but I'm sure that's not a girl's hand. I wiped my tear, hindi na dapat ako nagaaksaya ng luha para sa walang kwentang tao. I need air so I excused myself palabas ng Republiq. Hindi ko kinaya kaya umiyak ulit ako.

It hurts when the person that made you feel special yesterday, makes you feel unwanted today. I hate it that even if how much I want to forget the pain, it keeps on haunting me. I just don't want to remember that bullshit. Nakakairita pero kahit anong sabihin o gawin ko, mahirap kalimutan yung taong nagbigay sayo ng maraming alaala.

"Sometimes you have to let people go because they are toxic on you. Let them go because they take and take and leave you empty. Para hindi ka mahirapan, let them go because in the ocean of life, when all you're trying to do is stay afloat, they are the anchor that's drowning you. Sana naiintindihan mo, pero all I'm saying is that let that thing you're holding to let go." 

Bigla akong napatigil sa pagiyak. I looked at where that voice is coming from. 

"Hey, Krisha. I'm Chris. Fuck, I'm not good at giving advice pero parang ang haba ng sinabi ko." I smiled at him. I heard him curse and left me, pagbalik nya may dala syang ice cream. 

"Tuwing galit ako, kumakain ako ng ice cream. Stress reliever kasi to. Try mo lang." Pinatong nya yung ice cream sa bench na inuupuan ko. Then and there, he left me.

Problema nun?