The Lonely Black Girl

Chapter 1

I was different. I could feel it. I knew it. I could see it in their eyes when they looked at me. I was the only dark- skinned black girl in my family and I hated it. I did not detest my skin tone, I just loathed how I was treated because of it. I had five siblings which consisted of four females and a male. I was the youngest of my siblings which made the pain of being left out even more unbearable. The constant commentary on how darker skinned girls were "black and ugly" always flew around whenever an argument ensued. When attacking my skin tone wasn't enough, my figure was brutalized next--"your boobs are dragging", "you're too big-boned", or "you're sisters' asses are bigger than yours". Then it became my face and hair--"ooh you got some dry and  nappy hair" followed by "that face is as plain as Jane". It became so bad that I would cry myself to sleep at nights, asking God why he made me this way.

All the constant negativity made me detached, a loner and anti-social. I spent a majority of my free time in my room alone. Sometimes I would draw, watch Netflix or listen to music on Spotify. I was grateful for one thing and that was nobody dared to enter my room. They mostly ignored me and for that I was grateful. This particular day I was studying for my final exams at college. I can't wait to finish school so I could move into my own apartment. I endured the mental torment at home so I could save up for a decent apartment after college. That was another plus for staying in this hell-hole. I was caught up in my thoughts when my only friend texted me to go out this weekend. Her name was Tiffany. She was of a lighter complexion, slim, had curly hair and freckles. She was not like my family with the harsh comments but she would occasionally make snide remarks whenever a guy that she likes says hi to me. I don't know why she would get upset. She knows that I don't date and the guys honestly do not like me. Nobody ever could. I was surprised that she even hung around me.

Since my last final was this Friday, it would not hurt to go to a party with her afterwards so I let her know that we could go out on Saturday.