Not really gone

The First day

I woke up today and all I could think of is pulling myself together. The funeral had only been three days ago I didn't really think people expect me to be there. But instead of being babies Jessy and I got ready, got into my car and drove to school. I pulled into a spot next to Hope and everyone stopped to stare. What was the big deal people die every day the world isn't ending right. Everyone that obviously does not really care but wants us to think they do would not stop saying stuff to us like"how are you", "if you ever need anything I'm here for you", "how are you guys holding up". it was getting so annoying!!! Then I ran into Eric the guy I just broke up with and have known my WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!! I have to admit I was speechless. He looked dashing, handsome. With his shaggy blond hair, deep, deep blue eyes that reminded me of the night sky. He was tall, I'm pretty sure he is "6,1"and he was a lot more muscular then I remember him being. He noticed me speechless ( damn it the guy I just broke up with knows I'm still attracted to him) so he looked away for a split second and said "hey" so casually I thought he forgot about what happened between us. I said hey back but them Hope came over and told me we should go to class. Thank god for that girl what would I do without her. We rushed to our lockers right next to each other, just like every other year. But then I felt a tug in my mind telling me to turn around. Then I could feel another pair of eyes on me. Some little voice in my head would not stop telling me to turn around. Finally when I did turn around I was looking into the most beautiful pair of blue eyes I'd ever seen. We just sat there and stared at each other until Hope made a weird noise with her throat, making me jump not expecting it. The little voice in my head started saying something but it was too fast to hear it right. I blinked a couple times realizing I was gauging at him. Finally he broke the silence "hey I'm Gunnar" all I could think was how tall and muscular he was. With that thought all I could manage to say was "hi I'm Elizabeth." I could feel the blood rushing up to my cheeks. He gave me a little half smile that made my heart stop and my knees buckle. I started to fall but the next thing I know is I'm in a very strong pair of arms.

I could feel the heat in my face from the embarrassing little thing that was happening. I realized that his hand was touching the skin on my arm that was revealed by my short sleeved, mid thigh , white dress I wore with a thick dark brown belt and a pair of brown leather boots my step mom got me before she died. the feeling of his skin to mine was like being electrocuted by a balloon, it makes you laugh and feel sparks run through your body. The feeling made me blush even more. I know I had just met him but some how I felt a strong bond with Gunnar. Once I was finally back to my feet Hope was giggling, because she understood what just happened to me. Gunnar gave me a playful look and asked "would you like an escort to your first class." I nodded slightly focusing on not embarrassing myself again. Once we were outside the math room we looked into each other's eyes again making my body hum at the sight of him this close to me. We finally broke apart from the bells interruption. At first it confused me when he fall owed me in, but I had to remember I'm not the only junior in school. I took my seat in the third row from the back. Hope rushed in trying to look like she hadn't been behind us the whole time. She sat by me throwing a mysterious look my way that I didn't understand until I looked back to see Gunnar staring at me. I blushed so much that I thought my head was going to explode. It felt like an eternity of him starring at me, the whole time I could feel his eyes burning a hole in the back of my head. The entire time that little voice in my head (that I've never had before) wanted me to go to him. The bell rang and I finally had a reason to talk to him but it looked that he had the same idea. I stood to go to him and found his face inches from mine looking down at me. The heat radiating off of him, making my heart hammer and my body hum.