hello, I am alive if anyone is wondering. My dad took my phone on Thursday and I've been MIA for a bit I can't contact anyone which has given me peace. yesterday I went off to my aunts summer camp where I am going to work and practically live in for a month and it was so much fun. I had managed to forget everything about life and just enjoy meeting the other staff members and taking care of the kids today but as soon as I came back home the feeling of utter sadness washed over me like, I've been gone for around 5 days now and has anyone made an effort to contact me? well, Jan did but after a bit, he disappeared again and now I am just sitting in bed feeling empty as hell and unmotivated. I feel like no one care really and I know that's not true I know someone cares but I can't help feeling like my other "friends" don't care enough, if I was Cecile, Ale, Victor, or Jan id probably would have been bombarded with messages or something along those lines but no, I'm simple old me :/. anyway, my co-workers at the summer camp are all so nice and sweet but they probs see me as the owner's niece or like the blonde girl that looks bored constantly but whatever I feel happy over there, I feel needed and wanted and that's all I really want, good god that sounds so annoying and like i am a nuisance but that's how I feel :(
is anyone really reading these? I don't think so but this helps me let out my feelings plus I can't talk to anyone because I don't have my phone and people don't check their imessage that much here. I miss my friends even tho they don't probably miss me but its okay.
Today's log was kinda depressing but yay
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