Rant

Wednesday, December 4

What are soulmates, what is the concept of soulmates, are they even real? Are so much actually a thing that can happen and not out there? Do I have one? Are they worth looking for? Is your all questions that have always played in my mind I used to be in love with weights, but lately I have completely given up on it but I'm platonic soulmates as much as well as romantic soulmates dot. I don't know what to believe anymore I want to believe in soulmates I want to live the fantasy I want to be happy, but at the same time I'm tired of living a fantasy that I know I will never be real I'm tired of thinking "oh this will happen" or ""one day I'm gonna find my soulmate" or "one day I'm going to be with someone who truly forever loves me" but I'm not sure about that like I mean sure, used to say Sofia was my best friend like my best friend my platonic soulmate andlike look at what I did, I completely broke her trust and her fucking heart and yeah and I don't think she completely has forgiven me and she only started talking to me again and forgave me because she's a good person No because she's truly or show me. I want the concept of soulmates to be real close so I can help here. I am saddened to say that I don't believe in them anymore, and I really really really want to be able to believe in them more when I find someone and truly say oh yeah this is my soulmate but now I know you're not real and fake practically. so yeah this was today's log...... thank you