Love of Roses [Poetry & Prose]

Confused Love

Would you still love me if I told you i have a boyfriend?
4 months gone,
You called me out of nowhere asking me if we're still have a chance,
You're begging for my love,
I'm begging for Him to love me,
I never become serious to whatever you say,
But I know you're not joking that night when you told me all your feelings.
We stand in the middle of the road,
And the only light we have is the lightning,
And there's three seconds distance before it light up again,
And if its strike us—
I'll die.
I was the only one who's gonna die,
Cause the girl takes the responsibility of what she did,
And if I ate the cupcake you're offering to me,
Everything I build up with Him will be lost,
I don't want that to happen but—
You asked if it's okay with me to kiss me,
I said let's see if that will happen,
And if that day came,
That's where I'm going to decide.