Darling I love you (ciel x suicidal! Reader)

Chapter 4

Night had finally fallen. You stood in your bathroom. The door had been locked. You looked at yourself in the mirror knowing what you were about to do. Tears running down your face.

"I guess I'll see you soon papa." You said in between sobs.

"Oh and... James." At that point you said that you broke down to the ground crying.

You got up and grabbed a pair of scissors and started to cut your hair. You screamed as you did. When you were done, your hair was the length of an average boy. You started to cry again. Then you grabbed the same pair of scissors and started to open up your scars on your left arm. You cut over your scars. Once they started bleeding you went to your right arm where you didn't cut much. And you carved the words "I'm sorry" right onto your skin. It hurt like crazy. You didn't care, you already had felt enough pain in your life.

There was a silence. You sat on the floor with blood running down your arms. Then you decided it was time. You unlocked the bathroom door and went out to your bedroom. On your bed was the Mei rins gun. You had snuck in her room earlier and got it. You picked it up and looked it over. Then you set it up to be shot. You weren't crying anymore... You were smiling. Know you knew you were going home to see your brother and dad. And you can finally meet your mom. You laughed slightly as you placed the gun on the temple of your head.

"Goodbye guys, I'm sorry." Just then as you were about to pull the trigger, you pushed down on the bed.