Book of art 2

Rant

Hi so I just need to get this off me before I fuckin explode.

K so in third to last period today we were talking about the death pellety and the teacher asked if a man who killed 4 others deserved to die. I stuck up my hand and tried to explain that he didn't deserve to die because that is very hypocritical of the government to kill a man to 'teach' him to not kill again. However, you wouldn't know this but when I speak my mind gets really confused and thoughts are quite quick and it can be hard for me to form sentences the odd time because I'm trying to cram so much into the sentence my mouth just gives up. I sometimes just say words in the wrong order and other times I just struggle to form a sentence(I'm aware I'm dumb) or I just don't speak because I know ima fuck shit up. Also when talking for long periods of time I do tend to get nervous so that often throws me off too

Here's the thing tho. I have the teacher the answer she was looking for, she congratulates me and tells me that I did well despite not being at the last class because I was signed out of school for something. Then this bitch says loud enough for me to hear 'how the fuck could you get that from that? She can't even fucking talk right" now, I know this is just me being a sensitive bitch but she is constantly on my back for everythinggggggggg like when the teacher went around the room asking what we wanted to be. I said that I wanted to be an art teacher(I don't anymore because art sucks) and she says in front of the whole class 'You can't even talk in front of the class so I doubt you'd be able to uphold a class. Plus they would just take the mick outta u' and then I'm obviously embarrassed so o don't say anything.
Then one day in English we were doing this group talk thing and she asks my friend 'why are you friends with her? She's a homo' BITCH TF she always preaches about how u should be fair to everybody and then calls me out because of something I can't change about myself? Hm

Like I honestly can't with this bitch but I'm not gonna go tell a teacher because I don't want her to get all pissy with me n get one of her 20 year old farmer boyfriends to come and beat me up. Ugh like sorry this is so long but I just need to get this out. Tried talking to my dad about it and he just shrugged his shoulders :pp