Bechloe - No, Not Much

Chapter IV

Beca's POV

I'm now several months into my pregnancy and things are going really well. After a lot of thinking and talking, I decided that I'd keep the baby. I was scared about what people were going to think but the Bellas and my dad were really supportive. Chloe, Fat Amy, and I have moved up to New York and we're currently living in this tiny ass apartment but we can't afford anything else at the moment. My job at the recording studio is pretty good. It's good that I can finally put my music skills to good use and help people. Because I'm new, some people don't really take my ideas into account but as Chloe keeps reminding me, I'm just going to have to be patient and then show them how great I am when the time comes, just like I did with Sammy last year. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have been able to get this job in New York. It's funny how things work out.

I hope that my pregnancy doesn't get in the way of my job but things aren't as nearly as bad as I thought they'd be. Over the past few months, Chloe has been absolutely amazing to me. She's pretty much does everything for me, like, EVERYTHING. She makes me three meals a day, does the washing, cleaning, grocery shopping, and other things like that. I don't even have to lift a finger. I really appreciate what she's doing for me but I miss not being able to do things for myself. I feel useless but Chloe reassures me that I'm not. I still haven't heard anything from Jesse. It's been painful but Chloe and everyone else tells me that I don't need him and that he's a total asshole. It was hard to hear at first but now I agree with them. I still miss him from time to time but not like I used to.

She's seriously the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I have no idea what I did to deserve her. When she told me that she'd help me through my pregnancy I was speechless but I needed someone to help me. It's only been a few months but I'm starting to grow in my belly and experience some of the pregnancy symptoms like morning sickness, loss of appetite, trouble sleeping, irritability, and so on. None of which, by the way, have scared Chloe off. I've snapped at her a few times, which I'm not proud of but she's just been so good and remained patient with me. I've lost count of how many times I've apologised to her but I think it's safe to say that she knows I don't mean what I say when I get snappy.

Right now, I'm sitting up in bed with my laptop on my lap while Chloe finishes getting ready for bed.

"So, I've got a meeting first thing in the morning and then I've got to do an interview and then I'll be straight home," Chloe tells me. "When I get back we can go out shopping together."

"You know that I can go out shopping by myself, right?" I chuckle.

"I know, but I don't want to do it alone. You might see stuff you like and I don't want you carrying heaps of bags by yourself."

"Chlo, I'll be fine. Just because I'm pregnant doesn't mean that I'm incapable of doing things."

"Of course you're not but you know that I'm here to take care of you so I'll be your pack horse."

"You don't have to do that, dude,"

"That's okay. I want to and I said that I'd be there with you. So, have a big sleep in and I should be back around lunchtime then we can go out." Chloe turns off the kitchen light then climbs into bed next to me.

Since our apartment is tiny, Chloe and I have to share a bed together and a fold-out bed nonetheless. Fat Amy scored the double bed since she said that she would have broken the fold-out. I thought that I should have the proper bed since I'm the pregnant one but the fold-out isn't too bad. It's a bit squeaky but it's comfy and I hope that it'll continue to be comfy when I get bigger. If not, I'm totally kicking Amy out of her bed and sleeping in it.

I try not to get too annoyed at Amy since she gives the Bellas information about Chloe and I that I'm not particularly comfortable with. The Bellas say that we act like a couple or we're already in a relationship without the other knowing, which is kind of true, I guess. We do pretty much everything together and Chloe does fret over me like she's the baby's father, or mother, I don't know. Not that I'd ever admit this to them, but I find it kinda cute and endearing that Chloe's like that. Chloe says that she's just doing her 'best friend' duty by helping me out. Everyone laughs at her when she says that but Chloe just brushes it off and I did, too, until Amy came up to me one day while Chloe was out and started talking about my relationship with Chloe.

We talked about how things were going with my pregnancy then we talked about how great Chloe was to me and then... well, she talked about how I feel about Chloe. I said that Chloe's always been a good friend to me and I can always rely on her but Amy dove deeper and hinted at any romantic feelings I have for Chloe. The conversation caught me off guard and I had no idea what to say. I'm not gonna lie when I say that Chloe is an attractive woman. She IS beautiful and there's no doubt about that but I haven't really thought of us to be more than friends. Okay, that's a lie. I have thought about what it'd be like to date Chloe but I haven't gone much further than that.

Amy kept saying how cute Chloe and I would be as a couple and how we're pretty much a couple right now. Looking at how Chloe and I are towards each other, I can see where Amy is coming from. We pretty much are in a relationship together without the romance. It's kinda nice and it's making this pregnancy a whole lot easier for me. I honestly don't know what I'd do without Chloe. The more time I spend with her, the more I think about what Amy said to me and the interesting part is that I am thinking more and more about whether or not I DO have romantic feelings for Chloe. As I said, I haven't thought much about her in that way but with everything she's doing with me now... there's something inside me that's pulling me to her in a non-platonic way. It's weird and I can't describe it but it's there and I'm not sure what to do about it.

When it's time to sleep, I put my laptop away then burrow down under the sheets and lie on my side as I wait for Chloe to scoot up to me and spoon me as she always does. I get comfy then I can't help but smile and enjoy the tingling sensation I get throughout my body when Chloe wraps her arms around me and pulls me to her. She presses her body right up against mine so her entire front is touching my back. I never thought I'd be a cuddler but here I am, relishing in Chloe's cuddles.

"Night, Becs," Chloe says.

"Night, dude."

Chloe presses a gentle kiss on my shoulder that's not covered by my bed shirt and the feeling I get afterwards is a feeling that I never thought I'd get. Once her lips leave my skin, heat rushes to my core and I have to take a breath through my mouth. Chloe adjusts her arms around me so she's comfortable then shifts her hips so my ass makes a nice, cosy home against it and it makes me moan softly but not loud enough for Chloe to hear and... Oh no... My eyes fling open and that's when I realise. That's when I realise that I do, in fact, have romantic feelings for my best friend. Shit!