Erwin x Reader: Hearts to the Cause

Chapter 6: Shiganshina

You wake up early the morning, Erwin is sleeping soundly next to you. You roll over and look at his beautiful, still face. So peaceful. Your heart breaks, knowing that today is the day that you both ride to Shiganshina with the rest of the survey corps.

You lay silently by his side until he starts awaken. His blue eyes flutter open, a soft smirk caresses his face, "Good morning" he says in a raspy voice, clearing his throat.

"Good Morning" you smile back at him.

Before you can say anything, Erwin grabs you for a kiss. You spent your entire night after your intimacy in silence, gently stroking his hair and listening to each other's breath. It was beautiful, but it is also now refreshing to hear his voice.

"Listen," he says, sitting himself up in your bed "I need you to know something. We are both going to be put into some serious danger soon, I probably won't make it back alive and there is a chance you won't either. What happened last night was something I had been thinking about since I met you. I needed to worship you, I would have regretted it if I hadn't." He said staring a hole through your face.

"I feel the same way, Erwin." You say, sincerely.

"But," he said, grabbing your hand "we still have a mission to focus on. We have humanity to save. We need to give our hearts to the cause, regardless of what happened last night."

"Erwin, you don't have to worry. I will not falter from the objective." You reply. His words stung, but it was already a thought you had in your head unfortunately.

The emotional connection you felt towards each other was intense, but your obligation to humanity was greater. Erwin pulled you in and kissed your forehead, "time to get ready then." He said unequivocally.

You both got dressed in silence. When you were both finished you sat on the edge of the bed together, once again wishing that your reality outside of the room would vanish. The time eventually came when you couldn't wish anymore, and you headed down together to the wall and rode towards Shiganshina.

It took a whole day and night to get there, but you finally made it. Things went suspiciously well at first. There weren't any sign of titans nearby. You knew that was too good to last, however; you were right. The Armored Titan, Colossal Titan, and the Beast Titan were all present.

Eren had already boarded up the holes in the wall, so you were all trapped between titans. You were given orders to gather the horses, but once you reached everyone, the Beast Titan was already hurling boulders in that general direction.

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Erwin came down from the wall and discussed the situation over with Levi. It was decided that the only hope we had of getting soldiers out of this situation would be to charge at the Beast Titan as a diversion while Levi made his way to slaughter him; a suicide mission.

In that moment, Erwin knew that he had to let go of his dream of getting to the Yeager cellar, but he also had to let go of his dream of loving you.

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You were standing in a group of scouts trying to calm everyone down. Panic was running rampant on the ground, and it only got worse with each boulder thrown by the Beast Titan. Eventually, Erwin made his way over to the group.

His speech started off sullen, but ended in a way that cause a fire to ignite inside of you and your comrades.

"It's us who gives meaning to our comrades lives! The one who will remember them.. are us, THE LIVING!!" he screams at the top of his voice.

You all scatter, saddling up to mount your horses. Before you climb atop of your horse Erwin grabs your hand swinging you around to face him. He plants a passionate, deep kiss on your lips and looks at you and says, "Our hearts for the cause."

You run the back of your hand down his cheek, caressing him, knowing this is the last time you will ever get to feel his warmth. "Our hearts for the cause." You say in a reassuring manner. Erwin kisses your forehead once more as he lets you go. You mount your horse and follow closely behind him.

Erwin lets out an incredible roar while raising his blade in the air as you charge toward the Beast Titan. Erwin takes one more glance back at you before firing a green smoke signal and then faces forward. I am so lucky to have had you, Erwin Smith. And then, everything fades to black.