𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐘 •𝐁𝐖𝐖𝐌•

/16/

"Hi baby. The kids wanted to see you today since it's your birthday."

"Hi daddy" the Twins said in unison.

They were now 5 the beautiful Amelia Skye Matthews, and the brave Xavier Wren Matthews.

"He has your name." I smiled.

The Twins went on and on of what's been going on in their lives. Like school, our dog Milo, the new toys Grandma bought them, and whatever else 5 year olds talk about.

"Mommy why is he not talking to us" Amelia asked confusedly after ranting.

"Because baby he's resting" I placed my hand over you massive headstone. Almost breaking down.

It's been 5 years since you passed, and I still struggle accepting it.

Your last words linger with me at night.

"Move on, you deserve to be happy"

Sometimes I feel your lips on mine ever so slightly.

I sleep in your clothing, I still have everything that's yours in our home.

"It's okay mommy don't cry" Xavier crawled up to me hugging me.

I miss your touch, I miss your scent, I miss they way you make me feel, I miss you.

"Daddy, even though god has you on a special mission in the sky and we can't meet you. I know you love us, we love you too. Mommy told us all the great stories about you saving people." Amelia said, stuttering over a few words.

"Yeah we love you daddy. We'll be back again soon" Xavier said wiping the sleepiness out his eyes.

"I love you baby, I will always love you. I'll see you again soon."

I half smiled leaving the flowers next to your picture of you in your uniform. I kissed my fingers and placed them on your lips.

"I can't move on just yet, but I'll get there. I promise. Happy birthday"

I stood up and walked away.

As I walked I kept thinking about the word best friend.

"Don't worry you still are my best friend" I said to myself laughing.

You were physically not there, but you'll always be kept in a safe place in my heart.