Philophobia ❦ [ Jungkook fanfiction | Jungkook x Reader ]

❦ Past

Jungkook p.o.v

I could  not handle it anymore she's just so damn attractive and her lips are so damn cute .

I kissed her ... hehe sorry

Y/n said nothing and she kept blinking

" Kookie what's that ? " She said

" A kiss " I said simply

" What's a kiss ? " She asked . I was so shocked

" When we should do it ? " She asked again

" Hmmm.... you can do it when you love someone " I said

" Love someone ..." Y/n looks really sad

" Aren't love full of beating and yelling ? Hurting and lies ? Cold and pain"

" Y/n ah " I hugged her " I don't know what happened to you but love is the sweetest thing in the life .. but sometimes it will hurt too " I said patting her head

" Do you want to know ? " I heard a small voice

" My past " she said

" If it is allowed to say " I answerd still hugging her

" Wait " she stood up and went to her room

She came out with Tara

" This teddy bear " she hugged it " is the only thing that they bought for me

Y/n p.o.v

* Flash back *

It was on my 3 years old birthday

" Y/n " my dad said " this is present for you " he handed me a cute teddy bear

" Thank you appa " I said joyfully and hugged him . Through his shoulder I saw a sad , crying mom

Eomma.... When I saw her ... I always see the pain ... She was always hurt

Appa.... He always yelled at us ... beat at mom ... and he didn't look at me and talk to me at least once

Why.... he suddenly send this teddy bear ...

" Appa why did you give me this " I asked " it's because appa love you " he said

He loves me .....

He then walked to my mom and pulled her hair and slapped her face and kicked her stomach ....

It was not a new thing. ... He did it everyday ...

And he yelled " YOU UGLY BITCH HAHA ... LOOK AT YOUR FACE UGLY AS FUCK ! " he laughed and pushed her on the floor .

I watched it . I wasn't afraid at all because it's normal to me .

One day I asked her

" Why you stay with appa ? ... He is a bad bad for you right ? " I asked

Mom looked at me " Because I love him " she said

Oh... Is that called love ?

We heard the door open and dad went in and he had some paper in his hand

" Sign it " he said

" What ? " Mom asked her eyes widen

" I SAID SIGN IT !!! " He yelled

" No ! I'm not gonna divorce ! " My mom said

" You're not gonna sign huh ? " He said " okay " he smirked

He went to the kitchen and bring a knife and cut on my mom's arm ... Blood.... I saw blood.....

He then used her blood as ink and stamp my mom's finger print on the paper . He looked at me and smirk

" Wish you won't be like your stupid mom dear " he left

"Jae... Don't go Jae ... Please Jae.... "

She fall on the ground while crying hard .... She gave her everything just to be with this man .... And this man is now leaving her .

* End of flash back *

This is how I know love as ....

Jungkook p.o.v

I know she had a rough life but I never know it would be so terrifying and she was only 3 at that time . I hugged her again

" After that .... " Y/n said tear fall from her eyes " my mom died " ...

' what ? '

" Because she ran after him and then she hit by a car " Y/n said . I could see how painful she was

And it was on her birthday

" Thank God that I met Namjoon oppa " she continued ... I listened while patting her back " I was alone and walking lost .... It was raining too ... I met Namjoon oppa "

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