[Behind_closed_doors]

let_me

"What would i do if you weren't here Jichu .. Thank you as always", Jennie said as she put the porridge plate back on the lap table that Jisoo brought to her room. Jennie has been sick and feeling extra weak after all the travelling because of their tour. The tight schedule has been enough stress and to read all those hateful comments have been mentally degrading her,and starting to show physically as she couldn't eat for the past few days having no appetite to.

"Jendeuk... I'll forever be here with you but you need to be cautious of your health especially your mentality. I'm reminding you once again to stop reading those hateful comments."

"I know ..i know it's just that I can't help not knowing what people think of me. Of course the love will always be bigger than those petty hates ,but at night i just wonder-"

"Jennie Kim stop! No more..nuh uh",Jisoo cut her off as she placed a finger to Jennie's lips and continued,"You have our love that is all that matters right now. Also, I have to attend some work related meeting tomorrow along with Chaeng and probably won't be around the dorm so i suggest you sleep in early after taking your meds.. Hopefully you can rely on Lisa as she has no schedule , I'll tell her all that she needs to know to take care of you".

Jennie nodded and looked down her hands that were playing with each other,"Umm Jisoo unnie, can you try to come back home early if possible?",she asked as she keeps fumbling with her fingers. She does this habit especially when she's irritated with a thought or feeling.

"I'll try but.. it'll probably take like the whole day. Why? Like i said Lisa-"

"No!",Jennie suddenly volumed up and looked scared and something along the line of worry painted in her eyes,"I mean i trust Lisa,she is caring and all but I don't want to bother her. She's been tired too..so-"

A knock on the door interrupted them and revealed a smiling Lisa. A ray of sunshine , a happy pill that always seem to energize the people around her.

"Umm..I just came to check on Jen. Can i come in?"

"Sure",Jennie said as she propped herself up and Lisa sat beside her. Lisa looked really concerned and touched Jennie's forehead for any signs of fever.

"I hate seeing you like this...Did you eat already? Or i could make something for you?",Lisa asked still caressing Jennie's pale face.

"I just ate. Jisoo unnie made some porridge for me but thanks anyway Lis",Jennie replied. Lisa retrieved her hands and pursed her lips as she nodded and suddenly got up to leave.

"You should probably rest now .. I'll be  going then",Lisa said as she turned and leave only to bump into Chaeyoung who was entering Jennie's room with a warm cup of milk and chocolate cookies that she loved.

"Baked by me self only for Wifey!",Chaeng came in as she sing songed and placed it on the side table,"Oh Lisayah! Are you alre-",a slam of Lisa's own bedroom door echoed.

"What was that? Is she mad or something?", Chaeyoung asked perplexed but shook it off soon and shoved some cookies into Jennie's mouth.

"Wooww..hubby these are so good. I love them!",Jennie beamed with an eye smile as she noms but at the back of her mind was Lisa. The only person she doesn't really depend on, all because she doesn't want Lisa seeing her vulnerable like this as Lisa tends to empathize too much when it comes to Jennie. She was afraid she'd drain the energetic sunshine of Lisa if she ever depended on her.

It was different for Jisoo as she was like a big sister to her. And Chaeng too, despite being younger she is exceptionally more matured in dealing with this kind of thing. But Lisa..even Jennie doesn't understand why she couldn't bring herself to just be vulnerable for once to Lisa.