Owned

Chapter 15

Ayel went out of Caloy's room. She immediately saw jessman and jus in the living room. She started walking towards the two kaya napalingon ito sa gawi nya. The two looked at her with so much concern, nginitian nya lang ito for them not to notice what's going on but nabigo din sya because her tears just fell down unconsciously and with that, wala na syang nagawa but to just cover her face with her two hands while emotions are flowing out from her

She's just standing there when jessma immediately went to her way and hugged her.

She feels like all her broken pieces are scattered on the floor na parang once na limutin nya ang mga ito ay masusugatan lang syang muli. She wants to take a risk again and try her luck on Caloy but she's just too broken to try again

"Jess sya pa din" she said and hugged jessma tighter "Akala ko ayos na ako. I thought there's no longer love for him left in me but I was wrong my love for him never left." she said and kumalas sa yakap

"Ang sakit na ehh pero bakit ganon patuloy pa din akong umaasa na there would be at time where he will be brave enough para ipag laban ako, para piliin yung kami, para mahalin ako. But I think even his love for me isn't enough para mabigyan ng chance yung kami"

"Yel, I understand, but diba simula palang alam na natin na yung feelings nyo are both unsure. jessma said and wipe Ayel's tears

"Alam nating pareho na Ced is still in the picture and diba alam naman natin pareho na kaya din nag karoon ng agreement is because Ced is not yet ready to face everything tha's on Caloy's world kaya now he needs to find someone who can do that for him at the moment, pero once na she finally are capable of facing all of it alam mong babalik sya kay Caloy. At madali na para sa kanyang bumalik dahil may pwesto na sya"

"Bakit sa akin bawal yung ganon? Bakit ako yung walang pwesto when in the first place ehh ako naman ang nauna?" she asked while trying to compose herself

"I was there for him when no one else does. I even agreed on his plan on me pretending to be his girl kasi alam kong kailangan nya at makakatulong sa kanya. Even if alam kong ako lang din anaman yung mahihirapan sa huli. Now I don't even know how am I going to stop loving him when that's exactly what I need to do"

"Ayel alam mo na simula pa lang na masasaktan ka lang but you still chose to accept whatever he brings to the table"

"Because yun na lang yung naiisip kong way para maiparamdam ko sa kanya na mahal ko sya and for me to even feel his love" she said while looking straightly at jessma "kahit kunwari lang at pag papanggap lang lahat ng ipapakita nya ay tatanggapin ko jess"

"You love him so much that even breaking your own whole being is fine with you" jessma said habang umiiling dahil sa sinabi ng kaibigan nya

Ayel didn't respond and just cried her heart out once again

Jus on the other hand went inside Caloy's room and found his friend sitting on the floor while puling his hair and silently crying his heart out

"Caloy" he sofly said as he tries to get Caloy's attention

"I hurt her jus. I am the reason behind her pain, behind her broken pieces" he said without looking at jus "I'm just too stupid to make her feel that way when I should be the one protecting her. I don't know now jus" he said and frustration is visible on him right now

"Alam mo why won't you make up your mind, sino ba talag ang mahal mo?" he said at sumandal sa may pinto habang nakarap sa gawi kung saan nakaupo si Caloy "kasi either way may masasktan naman talaga ehh but what makes it worth it is yung alam mong kahit masakit ehh alam mong hindi mo na pinalalim pa yung sakit na pwede nilang maradaman kung papatagalin mo pa"

"I love ayel jus. I love her with all my heart. Sya lang jus, I'm just too fool to ignore her and my feelings for her before"

"But what about Ced? Caloy hindi sa pinag dududahan ko yung nararamdman mo para kay Ayel but hindi kaya nasasabi mo lang yan kasi nasaktan ka ni Ced ngayon? But pag lipas nyang sakit na nararamdaman mo at pag sinabi ni Ced na she's willing to be back in your arms again, masasabi mo pa babyan kay Ayel? Pare tama na, wag mo nang pag laruan yung nararamdaman noong isa kung may inaantay ka naman pala"

"No. I made up my mind jus, Ayel is really the one I love and kahit bumalik si Ced sa akin ay hindi ko na para muling itapon yung natitirang pag asang maging akin si Ayel dahil lang sa bumalik sya. Kahit ako napapagod na sa ginagawa nya. Ayoko na napag pakiramdam nya hindi nya kaya ay iiwan nya lang ako basta basta at babalik na lang kung kelan nya gusto"

"Masakit diba? Nakakapagod? Nakakasira ng ulo dahil lagi kang mapapatanong kung anong mali sayo, kung ano bang pag kukulang mo?" tanong nito kaya napatingin sa kanya si Caloy

"Hindi mo ba naisip na yan ang ipinaparamdam mo kay Ayel every time na babalik ka kay Ced na parang hindi nag exist si Ayel sa mundo mo Caloy?! Hindi mo ba naisip na yang mga tanong na yan ang laging bumabalot sa kanya everytime you choose Ced over her" lalo namang humigpit ang hawak ni Caloy sa kanyang buhok dahil sa mga naririnig nya mula sa kaibigan

"Na sasabihan mo na mahal mo sya pero once na bumalik si Ced at humingi ng panibagong pag kakataon sayo ay para kang nanlalabo ang mata at bukod tanging si Ced na lang ang nakikita. Hindi mo ba alam ang idinulot na sakit ng mga pangako mong pag mamahal kay Ayel ha?!" unti unti nang tumataas ang boses ni jus

"Hindi ko alam na ganyan na pala ang nararamdaman nya jus" his voice started to crack again

"Caloy nasaktan mo sya ng hindi mo namamalayan dahil nasasaktan ka din. Bakit ko alam na nasasaktan na sya? Kasi I was there, nandoon ako noong mga panahong she'll just smile off the pain. Na ilalaro nya na lang yung sakit" he said pero sa mas kalmadong paraan

"Kaya ngayon don't blame her if she doesn't even want to hear you telling her that you love her kasi ang tagal nyang pinang hawakan yan but sakit lang naman yung idinulot nito sa kanya"

"Jus anong dapat kong gawin? Anong dapat kong gawin para kahit papaano ay mabawasan yung mga sakit na nararamdaman nya? Ayoko syang mawala sa akin. Ayoko na syang mapunta nanaman sa iba dahil sa sarili kong mga pag kakamali. Iniisip ko pa lang para na akong binubugbog ng walang laban. I'm willing to do everything she wants para lang maayos sya at tanggapin nya ulit ako"

"Actually hanggang ngayon bwisit pa din talaga ako sayo lalo na pag na oopen yang topic na yan. Gustong gusto kitang sapakin para man lang makabawi para kay Ayel but hindi ko magawa kasi alam kong mas masasaktan sya once na malaman nyang nasasaktan ka"

Caloy's eyes are now swollen because of too much crying. Wala syang pakialam if mag mukha man syang mahina sa harap ng mga kaibigan nya, all he knows ay nasasaktan sya dahil nasasaktan ang babaeng mahal nya at dahil iyon sa kanya.

He stood up from sitting and slowly walked his way to the door and with all his might and energy he opened the door and went outside

He saw jessma hugging Ayel. They are both standing, Ayel can't see him dahil nakatalikod ito sa kanya kaya si jessma lang ang nakapansin sa kanya

Messy hair, untidy buttoned polo and two swollen eyes are the pefect description of Caloy now. Hindi naman alam ni jess kung maaawa ba sya o magagalit kay caloy but before pa makapag salita si jessma ay agad na lumabas si jus mula sa kwarto at tinanguan ito kaya agad kumalas sa yakap si jess kay Ayel.

Ayel saw that jessma are looking into something behind her kay hinarap nya ang tinitingnan ng kaibigan and there she saw the love of her life with his two swollen eyes straightly looking at her.

She also looked in his eyes but agad din syang umiwas ng tingin dahil she can't contain the emotions that were all visible in his eyes