Assassin|xxxtentacion

thirty-two

Jahseh P.O.V
2 weeks later

The past 4 days have obviously been really painful for Angel. She has been very distant and almost secluded from everyone else.

I mean I can't blame her I understand what she's going through. Every second of everyday I worry about her.

2 days ago she didn't eat anything all day, once I noticed I forced her to eat. Sometimes in the middle of the night I would hear her in the bathroom crying.

I usually just leave her be, since she probably would like to be alone at those times. But tonight is different, it's now 2:55 am and she has been in the bathroom for 50 minutes.

I slowly got up from the bed and creeped toward the bathroom door, putting my ear against the door. I heard a familiar soft angelic voice singing but it was shaky and more broken.

As I listened for a little longer I heard her voice crack and then she stopped singing. The sound of her muffled cries filled my head, I tried to not enter the room but I couldn't help it.

I kicked the door open revealing a girl I knew who didn't look like herself. She sat on the ground with her legs crossed holding a blade.

A small pool of blood beside her, the blood dripped from her slit wrists to the floor. I looked up at the mirror, and saw something written in what looked like blood.

"I CANT STAY ANYMORE, IT HURTS TOO MUCH. I'LL MISS ALL MY FRIENDS, BUT IF I DIE IM NOT SORRY."

Reading that and repeating it over and over in my head made my heart hurt. I ran over to her and took the blade from her hand and placed it on the counter.

"It's ok Angel, I'm here. shhh shhhhh, everything is going to be ok."

I engulfed her into a hug, at first she didn't hug back but a few seconds later she lightly grabbed onto me. Soon the sound of her sobs filled my head again.

I hated that sound, I wish I could never hear it again. The sound of her broken heart and shattered soul along with her arms around me clutching on for dear life, broke me.

"why? why? why? why?" she repeated over and over as if she was asking me.

"why what??"

"why does so much fucked up shit happen to me? i don't think i deserve this."

"I don't know, but remember that older lady that took care of me when my mom wouldn't."

She nodded her head looking towards me. I got up and grabbed the first aid kit beginning to clean and cover her wounds.

"I was in a similar situation as you and I asked her the same question." I said.

"What did she say?"

"She said god puts his best Angels to work, he has to test them, and put them through so much shit so they can learn lessons in ways others can't."

"Like a punishment?"

"No more like, he loves us so he's doing shit to test us. And he is giving us these lessons to protect us from anything that may happen to us in the future."

After I finished cleaning and wrapping her wounds she laid down on my bed looking at the ceiling as if she was thinking about something.

"What are you thinking about?"

"I'm just wondering if everything will be fine again."

"It's going to take sometime but I promise it will." I said getting into the bed, not worrying about the mess in the bathroom.

Angel P.O.V

"I promise."

Those words have been said to me many of times, and every time that promise has been broken.

"You pinky promise?" I said holding out my pinky finger.

Jahseh chuckled a little and wrapped his pinky around mine. "I pinky promise."

I payed down on the bed till thinking about everything, doubting myself, blaming myself, everything in the book.

"hey don't worry, everything is going to be fine, I'm here and so is Diamond, and Ski, and Coolie, and Craig, and Pump, and Don't forget we're assassins, that means we have families of assassins rooting for us. For you.

Remember the Vools and Members Only are here for you."

I smiled a little at what he was saying.

"Goodnight, Jahseh."

"Goodnight princess, I love you."

"I love you too."