Nikki Sixx Imagines (complete)

fighting and I am sorry ( Done)

"No Nikki I will no drop it. I love you damn it and I don't want to lose the one person who matters the most to me. the one person who has shown me how to live and love and how to be loved in return." I said

He rolled his eyes and shook his head

"This is bullshit, its the same thing with you every time you find my stash" he replied.

"Well it wouldn't be if you would stop the shit," I said

"I am not gonna stop just because you are scared," he said

I stopped. I gave up right then and there. It was no use to continue this never-ending fight if he didn't care that I was scared of losing him.

I felt the first tear escape before the others soon followed. I wiped my eyes and sniffled before I collected myself.

"Well then I am sorry" I started before I took a deep breath and got ready to break my heart and shatter my own world.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds before I reopened them and looked directly into his hazel eyes. The eyes I fell in love with, the eyes that belonged to the man who owns my heart, who I would give the world to, the man who I without a doubt cherish, and love more then I love my own self.

But it's not enough for him so I will break my own heart, shatter my own world and be done with it.

"I am sorry that I am not enough, that you have to depend on drugs for everything. I am sorry that you can't confide in me the way I do you when you need someone to talk to. I am sorry that regardless of how scared I am of losing you that you don't give a shit. What I am not sorry about is falling madly in love with you, forgiving myself to you, for living life with you while I could.  I am not sorry for wanting more in our relationship, hoping that one day you would wake and realize what you have before it's gone. But you won't. So Nikk I am leaving. It's over between us, I wish you the best in life, and I hope that shit will not take your life" I said before I turned and walked out the door closing it behind me on our relationship and walked to my car keeping my tears at bay as I drove.

I didn't last long. I pulled over and broke down crying. I lost the greatest man in my life due to his addiction to drugs, something that no matter what I could never compete with seeing as he would always choose it over me unless it was sex. I let all my hurt, anger, and pain out in those tears and I screamed out in frustration before I wiped my eyes and drove to a hotel where I would stay till I could get my own place.